So about an hour ago i saw the man who just broke my heart. He was a friend. Last time i got drunk i said somethings. I have since apologized and i thought things were okay. He told me he was going to reach out. He still has some of my stuff. Well i saw him today in his car while doing my work. We made eye contact and ignored me. That hurt. Im trying so hard to keep it together. That hurt though. I get off at 6. I need a pep so i dont try to turn to the darkside.
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I’m sorry to hear that - it is heartbreaking when we think back about what we’ve done in the past where we know we did the wrong thing.
But that’s the important thing to remember: we made our choices in the past, we can make different choices now.
You choose to stay clean, means you choose to be safe and healthy for you. That is helpful to you and it’s what you should do.
Why not hit up a meeting tonight? It gives you some people to hang out with 
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@Carangel101 today is not a good day for me either but just to say that we can live with the pain, we don’t need to escape, we learn and pursue being humans. Pain, disappointment, failure, sadness are human experiences and it’s ok, it’s ok to be sad today. Tomorrow will be another day with more experiences. Courage my friend!!! The man who broke your heart maybe will think things twice
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I completely understand what you’re experiencing. You can’t let your mistakes from the past haunt you or derail your sobriety. We are all human and make mistakes.
Heartbreak is the worst for sure but you need to stay focused on a better you and better days. 
We are all here to support you.
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Update: I had just gotten off and all the sudden my phone rang. I didnt recognized the number. With dashing sometimes i get phone calls with weird numbers. I answered and it was him. Anyways to make a long story short he is going to bring my stuff over tonight. Plus he and i agreed to talk. Wish me luck. I want to work things out. We would talk first thing in the morning to last thing at night for 2 straight months. So while battling everyday with my sobriety, its been 10× worse dealing with the loss of him.
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i can totally understand as that would derail me mentally (running into someone who’s broken my heart). I am sending you strength for tonight and hope your talk goes well. You are still very early in your sobriety so the emotions could be a bit high - we are here if you need any support or if you just need to vent.
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Wishing you the best … that your sobriety stays strong and intact and that you and your friend can be friends if not even more.
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Well its been a few days since meeting up with that guy and boy do I regret that. While he was nice and glad I am working on my sobriety he came off as kind of arrogant. Almost like he wants me sober but doesnt. If that makes sense. Dude you cant have it both ways. Im glad he made me see that my behavior while drinking was unacceptable. That night he texted me when he got home but i havent heard from him since.come to find out he blocked me again. Still didnt give me my stuff. Which was odd because that was the whole reason he came by.
Anyways, im glad he didnt cause me to cave twice. Once that monday before meeting him. Secondly afterwards after i had to pull my mental self together doing damage control. Through what ive learned here so far I realize its okay to be selfish. This is my body my life. Im in control and i’ll be damned to have someone who I thought was a dear friend try to ruin what positive thing i have going. Doesnt mean in an hour i will crumble but it wont be because of him or anyone else. It will be me.
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Glad you are okay and learning some things about this person and yourself. You are worth more. Don’t give up on yourself and always value yourself. 
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