It’s in the title.
Sometimes I feel Like I’m bored and don’t know what to do. Still have trouble to sleep.
But This year I’ll try to step into this World with my art. I’ve been scared and angry all my life.
It’s ok to be scared but how use It to transform It into something valuable ?
This is the math.
Wishing you the best 
I am evolving. I feel that I am evolving. It is a strange feeling sometimes. I am taking new steps on unfamiliar ground, and that is challenging, emotionally. I feel I need reassurance.
What I need is reassurance, reassurance that I have a place on this path and that I have capability to do this. I need shelter as well, spaces where I can feel safe amidst the unpredictabilities of life.
Recently I joined an SA group to explore SA’s recovery program and to have a group I can connect with, a fellowship. The members are warm and inviting, and the meetings are welcoming. I feel comfortable there. (I suppose I will also feel uncomfortable and challenged, in a healthy way, as I work the program, but that is a healthy step.)
I feel emotionless. Im a month and 7 days in and my mood never changes from meh. I go through motions day to day. Even when I bake go to the beach plant take the kids out. I just don’t feel any real pleasure or dislike for anything. I’m to the point I can’t even be bothered to start or continue a conversation with anyone or even fake my face.
What I need it unknown at the moment. I go to counselling and AA and try to be productive with life. I’m hoping it’s time cause I’m struggling knowing I can get a artificial high and when I’m spending every moment not feeling anything.
This is great. Evolving is scary and Sometimes it’s easier to stay where you know even if it’s Bad. But evolving is beautiful at the End. Like you I need to find It, I need a support system and I’m thanking you again for sharing and encourage the community on this app.
I don’t know but what you are describing reminds me when I was depressed …when I accepted It ? Have you talked about It with your doctor ? Sorry if I’m overstepping with these questions…but mostly congrats for your 1 month and 7 days.
I have been feeling like that lately until lastnight it all came pouring out. I was watching a YT vid about the Kings guard, I thought a horse looked sad and just started crying uncontrollably. I feel a lot better today
No not all. To be honest I’m married to a narcissistic man so everyday feels like a unhill struggle and trying to battle my own self worth. Iv been stripped of my identity and drinking was all I had left that was mine and to help me escape. I have spoke to the doctor but to be honest having medication caused more hassle for me than it’s worth in my marriage. Unfortunately I’m just trying to stay sober and just trying to put my best foot forward with findin myself x
To you too 
well done on your steps x
Your broken, as you say,
And it’s time to rebuild. There’s a treasure we can find in building a new identity. New God Habits. New people. New fun. It’s scary but it will turn out OK. Then it will be great. Then awesome.
But for now, OK can do.
I just seen this. Screenshot from Facebook
Its day 12. I cant sleep at all. I dont see any of my friends. I barely go out. Just sit and smoke (not weed). I cry cry cry. To be honest I dont have any friends anymore. Just cats and me. Thankful for them of course. Today I will go to seaside. I will look at the sea as a robot and come back home. This shit is hard. But there is no other way.
There are other ways to get and stay sober through working with others in recovery. You can even do it online. Connection is a critical component for just about everyone I know that has sustained sobriety.
I need to be able to not be afraid. Dr7gs and alcohol have destroyed myself worth. I am a shelf of who I was and today is my first day of being sober and clean. I have never been to any meetings. I will go to one this morning.
Thank God (as my understanding of God whatever) I managed to sleep all night. Without any sleeping pills. Going outside helped me a lot. Its 8 a.m here and I woke up one hour ago. Priceless to wake up early and sober. It feels like you vibrate with the nature. Cats are all awake of course and we are having a great morning. Please stay sober. Its worth it.
Congrats on your sober streak @Tinkerbell! 
YES, Sleep helps SO much. I’m still struggling off and on with mine.
And YES sobriety isn’t easy, but it is definitely worth it, and MUCH better than the alternative. 
I’m so happy to read this💗
