Today I stuck to my Saturday plan. Slept in til 8AM. That is way late for me…I usually get up at 430 during the work week. So that was awesome! Took a hot shower and stretched out for about 30 minutes. Then coffee and a small breakfast. Next was the climbing gym. Had a good 3 hour session there sending some new routes. After that, grocery shopping for some healthy foods. Got home and cleaned house. For a late lunch/dinner I cooked up a great spicy shrimp and veggie ramen soup. To my taste it was just as good as the ramen place I go sometimes for lunch. Now I’m just being lazy reading around here, about to find something on Netflix to watch until bedtime. Mission accomplished.
Today I’m taking care of myself by reminding myself that it’s okay to relax and have a lazy day. I’ve always had a problem with that; I get anxious and have to constantly be doing thing or I feel like I’m wasting time.
Did a nice walk with the dogs this morning, then going to sober lunch with my wife and then laying around and going to be lazy this afternoon.
Today I am telling myself to take a breath. Slow down. Enjoy the time and space I have, just for today. Thanks @Nordique for the reminder. I also get caught up in the mind trap of busy-ness. I am going to do a video call with my brother and baby Maya while my parents are over there so I can see everyone. I’m going to cook some yummy food and maybe watch a holiday-themed movie today. It’s Sunday, and I am looking forward to the rest of it.
I’m going to wrap up my home decorating for the holiday today, dammit! And get boxes put away. I’m going to schedule a nap in my day this afternoon and if I decide I don’t need it, at least the time is there. I’m going to continue taking time for meditation and journaling, which I’ve managed to do since this past weekend, even a few minutes is worth it.
May I ask how is the two coffee rule going? I ask because I thought of you this morning when I almost swore in the team meeting and thought, I wonder if I’ve had too much coffee…
Taking time to literally heal my body, as I have cut down again on my benzos, now down to 0.8mg. I decided when I took out a pill, to cut it smaller than yesterday. Even though I likely won’t get any sleep, I am fine with that. I worked out the other day, but so far today, I drank a liter of regular water, a liter of lemon water, apple cider vinegar, etc., because I have some weight I need to lose, and the body loves to store toxins inside fat cells. I watched some videos from doctors about healthier habits and trying to put those habits into practice.
I also decided to cut back on another medication I have taken for years and years. I don’t need it. It has far too many negative side effects…namely, weight gain. It’s supposed to be an anti depressant, but it doesn’t really work for me. I am not sure why I take it. I have become far too dependent on it to sleep.
So, whilst I might not get any sleep today, I am sure I’ll be tired enough to fall asleep tomorrow
It’s going well and I feel an immediate improvement. And still having a couple of cups has stopped any withdrawal. I tried to stop cold turkey about 2 years ago and the headaches were awful. I couldn’t believe how rotten I felt.
But the intense anxiety has gone and I don’t feel like I want to tell everyone to ‘shut up’ all day. Less irritable for sure. I have thought through the life stuff that was bugging as well. So it’s not just less coffee that’s helping. I was definitely stress drinking coffee, the worst thing to do 🤦
To be fair, I still want to swear in my team meetings 🤷
I’m really pleased to hear that - anxiety is hellish so any action that helps put a cap on it sounds good to me. Nice one.
And I hear you in trying to stop caffeine completely and headaches, I’ve had a two coffee rule in place for a while treading the line between feeling crappers and becoming jittery McGee.
Maybe there isn’t a cure for the swearing in meetings. Perhaps we should learn to embrace.
Yeah I get what you are saying but most things are easier known in hindsight. Fair play for clocking it and making the change.
I was officially told by psychosocial person at work that swearing was good for our health so I’m taking that and running with it. Swear bingo on the cards I reckon.
Today I took care of myself by skipping a X-mas cocktail for work. My boss asked me to go, but he knows I quit drinking, and I said to him that I’d rather not go (just 44 days into sobriety). No objections from his side…
Instead of that I went to the gym!
And get boxes put away. I’m going to schedule a nap in my day this afternoon and if I decide I don’t need it, at least the time is there. I’m going to continue taking time for meditation and journaling, which I’ve managed to do since this past weekend, even a few minutes is worth it.
