How do i accept

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I felt like i needed to shear

Ive been craving Marijuana quite a bit. I think ill be able to handle it but i never can. Its either 100% on or 100% off. I have so much going for me right now. Its like im letting my guard down

I could say fk it and take cbd 0.3%thc gummies but then when thars gone, what next? Smoking weed is. If i say fk it, tomorrow morning ill want to smoke be4 work. And if i did that what do i say if im asked to drive to work. I cant drive under the influence of Marijuana. And i cant work under the influence of Marijuana because its all not really a normal thing to do let alone extremely dangerous. I just got my drivers prmit back, i have a baby on the way. Everything points to dont pick up. Im just having a hard time accepting it.

Does anyone have advice on how to accept im a pot head alcoholic

I feel like this is a big thing i need to do

Life changed
My surroundings have changed
Maybe i havnt?

Picking up is unacceptable
How do i accept this fact
I want to change

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The first few steps of AA really helped me to do this. The first step my sponsor got me to write out my drinking history. Reading it back, it was red flag after red flag after red flag. No way I could say I wasn’t an alcoholic after that. Then she got me to write down how my life was unmanageable, and the ways I wanted it to be manageable. Again, seeing it in black and white, how could I be anywhere near the person I wanted to be if I was drinking? And then focus on what you want your life to be, rather than what you want it not to be.

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Think about what it is that you want for yourself. One road is sobriety and the other is addiction. Sobriety only works for people who accept that their use of alcohol and drugs is not acceptable.

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I really like your idea of writting down my history with addiction

I want to give this a try
Thank you

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Just like with alcohol it is the first one that will get you. I had a year plus completely sober before I could feel the bad feelings creeping in and decided to pick up some THC sodas from a local brewery just to numb out. THC had never been my problem before.

Here is what I learned, if you give me an opt out of feeling button I will take it. 2.5 mg my first night for a pleasant little buzz turned into 25 mg to zonk myself out surprisingly fast.

An addict is an addict and I am an addict. Once you give into the first one they all come tumbling after. I see you on here every day checking in and doing the right thing, keep doing that.

Avoid the first, avoid a reverse!

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