So, how do you do it? As i sit here after hanging up the phone i had said i needed a meeting. Is that how you do it. Or call someone becouse i have a burning desire and its availible to me right now. Well in about 30 minutes it will be, shes passing by and asked if i wanted some, just like that. Yeah, ok im here. Just like that. I sit here and think that why am i so tempted? why cant i say no? Whats wrong with me? It shouldnt be this difficult. Today is my quit day. Im doing 90 meetings in 90 days. Everyday. Even a couple times a day. I just want to turn it down i want to be clean more than anything i can possibly think about or love. I wasngoing to go to a rehab for a year but im scared. I have a whole house here. I lived here for 15 years and i am not that bad off. Its been 6 years off and on, mostly clean time though. My boyfriend smokes molly and hes said hes quiting drugs if it mean me staying and keeping the home we share togather. I dont want to loose everything and i know its all replaceable, i can get this stuff back after time. But i have 15 years acquired here. I know its about my health and me staying clean. Im so confused and scared about what to do. I dont even know why i use anymore. Its so frustrating, this disease of addiction. I need to go to a meeting and just to flush what she gives me. I need guidance, i need encouraging advise on what to do. Please share your opinion soon before she gets here any amount of help will help. Thank you.
Jesse- dont do it!!
Jesse, im proud of you for reaching out. That shows you have some ambiguity and dont want to use. First tell that person you dont want it. Get your ass to a meeting ASAP IF YOU CAN GO RIGHT NOW BEFORE THAT PERSON ARRIVES. Your disease will tell you that it isnt your fault you did not seek it out. You were a victim of circumstance but that is not true. You do have a choice. You cannot avoid some temptations but one of the 1st things they will tell you in rehab is that you HAVE to change people, places & things. If this person knows you are trying to stop then they arent your friend anyway. Keep strong. GO TO a MEETING!
A meeting may be great…or call someone. Do not let your friend stop by for a drop off
Other ways to get through the urges…
Go for a walk
Workout
Cool or bake
Clean the house
Engage in a hobby at home if you have something like puzzles or drawing
Drink lots of water…I enjoyed seltzer water
Read through the many threads here …so many great posts to help…I do love the just for fun threads to keep me distracted…like the meme thread
Take a really hot or a really cold shower
Do a pedicure or manicure
Day 1 is amazing…we are here for you. The first bits are the hardest. Just find ways to keep yourself busy. Just focus on the immediate minute at hand. Sending you much strength
You don’t need to flush what she gives you. What you need to do is tell her ass nvm you’re not using anymore and to kindly plz not get a hold of you anymore. It’s never going to be simple. Every day I have a chance to go and get crack or cocaine if I want to. You just need to say no and each day it well get a little easier.
I did i got to a meeting on zoom and she came i was strong and i told her i dont even want it she said shed do a meeting with me someday i was proud of myself and im still one day clean
Real question here. Would this be a good time for you to call a crisis hotline?
Stay strong!
Oh good, glad you are past that tsunami
That’s wonderful!! Online meetings have been wonderful for me. Congrats on the strength, ODAAT fellow traveler
I did i got on zoom for a meeting she came and i said that i was doing a meeting that i didnt want it anymore. She said one day maybe she can do a meeting with me. I gave her her smokes and she left
The sad truth…most of us alcoholics and addicts lose everything to our addiction.
Either get sober or dont, that is your decision. If you choose not too…there are plenty of stories of what will happen.
Quitting is hard. There were times in the beginning it sucked. Looking back, it was the best thing I ever did.
Im very impressed
Im sorry if i came off as harsh on your old post about the bllsht drugs.
Drugs are terrible
I dabbled a little bit with hard drugs. The whole lifestyle is dark. They will get you inside a homless mans shed doing shots of fireball andbwe wouldnt even think its bad. They will get you riding your bike at 3am waking up your friends for more
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Those na and aa meetings can save your life but you have to go for that to happen either online or in person
Think about what it is that you want for yourself. Addiction doesn’t end well for people who doesn’t turn from it…
I like to utilize these prayers 1st God direct my thinking. I use this when I’m thinking about the future the past or judging someone. I repeat until my thinking changes. 2nd is God take away my fear how would you have me be. Sometimes humble sometimes courage sometimes patient 3rd God grant me an inspirational thought or action. My problem is between my ears these prayers help almost immediately