Thanks for the reply. Yes, it’s very insidious even when it doesn’t seem too bad externally. How are you doing with all this? How long have you been sober?
For me, knowing I am an alcoholic did not immediately equal knowing or admitting I needed help. I defined myself as an alcoholic on and off while I was actively drinking and not looking for a way out. I saw myself as an artist (writer and musician) and thought “turning my life and will over to the care of” alcohol and occasionally other drugs was part of the process. For me, the submission to alcohol was what defined alcoholism. But I was mistaken about a few things. To put it simply, I thought alcohol and I “had a deal.” But when I was 31, alcohol stopped keeping up its part of the bargain. I was drinking all night and not able to black out / get away from myself, so I was less capable of doing anything about my problems, because drunk, but unable to get away from my problems.
The key for me, I think, is if you really want to stop and you’re unable after a few attempts to do so on you’re own, it’s pretty sure you’re the type of alcoholic who needs some help.
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Great insight, thank you!
In my opinion if something makes even slightly uncomfortable and you don’t have to you shouldn’t be there/continue doing it. Let’s say you gave it a try, and most times it went wrong, than you have your answer. I always compare it to staying too long in a toxic relationship
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I wonder about that. There are different kinds of discomfort. Being sober definitely makes me uncomfortable sometimes. Should I then not stay sober?
Hey there. I’ve struggled with this as well but finally realized and made the decision yesterday to get sober. Day 2 here. Let’s goooo! We all have our reasons to stop or take a look at ourselves and question what’s best for us but I know for myself, this is necessary and you will too when it’s time. Just here to check in and let you know you’re not alone in your feelings/ thinking. I’m brand new on this app but I know community is important on this journey.
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Sobriety is your natural state. Sometimes it’s not fun. Sometimes it’s even really bad. But it is what it is. Drinking or getting high is something you’re actively doing. So if you do something which sometimes or most of the times feels bad or wrong, than you should stop doing it.
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Ur absolutely right in that there are different variations of “uncomfortable”. The pain i felt in active addiction was something else honestly, but the pain in recovery was a form of healing (for me anyway). We are bound to get uncomfortable in recovery bcuz we are living a conpletely different way of life than what we are used to. We are going to feel emotions that we haven’t felt in years, and often times thats uncomfortable and even painful. But i think the difference is, is that we know in our heart who we are meant to be, and that staying sober is the only way to get there. None of us wake up one day and aspire to be an active addict or alcoholic. There will be pain and uncomfortable moments, but the pain in recovery can be life altering if we work thru it, instead of run from it (like we used to do in addiction thru drugs).
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