Welcome to Talking Sober! You’ll find wisdom and support here. You need not be alone with your addiction any more.
I was willing to pay the price of various consequences of my drinking as “the cost of doing business”. I went to jail for a little bit, but the thought of going for longer (3-5 years) supplied the fear I needed to stay sober for some time, enough time to start growing my sobriety and getting to love my sober life.
Here’s a thread full of ideas for you to get started.