Hi everyone, this is my first post.
I quit meth two days ago. I started with Adderall six months ago, then moved onto coke, which stopped working. Then I moved onto meth a month ago, which I started because both Adderall and coke stopped working on me.
I weigh 105lbs right now (16.5 bmi) and have gone for three days at a time sometimes without sleeping. The worst part has been that I went through a breakup when I started meth, and it caused me to act incredibly erratically toward my ex, who had requested space. I called and texted him constantly, fought with him and dropped things off at his house while peaking.
I came clean to him about my usage this week. His response catalyzed me to get clean. I want to get better partially for him, but mostly for myself.
One thing that has helped was writing a letter to him from the perspective of my future self. It helped me identify everything I want to achieve and who I want to be when I’ve quit meth. I love and am grateful for my ex for being the reason I considered quitting. What has worked for you? What can I do to avoid cravings? How can I stay motivated? I would love to hear.
Hi @Sunny1012, welcome to Talking Sober 
I find it helpful to remember “HALT”:
Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired
Those four things make it easier to relapse; if you take care of these things - eat healthy food several times a day (don’t ignore hunger); talk about your feelings, don’t hide them or bury them (talk with sober friends, here on TS or at NA or wherever your sober friends are); don’t isolate yourself (take time daily to spend time on Talking Sober and/or NA or other groups); and get sleep (take some naps and extra sleep: you will be tired) - if you take care of these things, you will have a much easier time staying sober.
Take care and don’t give up. It is worth it.
I like the writing idea! I will try that
Treatment for my addiction helped me. I too have trouble with staying motivated. Routine is helpful. Also NA and AA meetings help me.
Writing has saved me so many times. It is a good coping mechanism. You can do it for yourself intimately, like in a journal, or in a more public way, like posting on a blog.
When I feel like my head is about to explode when so full of racing thoughts, letting it go on paper is cathartic. Writing is, before everything else, for you. You can write your gratitudes, your dreams, your hopes, your feelings, letters to your past self, future self, people who will never read your letters or maybe will, anything really.
But if you do feel like writing and sharing to have discussions and feedback, I believe you are in the right place. No one here will judge you. You are strong.