I’ve just arrived in Spain @LeeHawk. Here for 3 months!
Thank you, I love being in Spain. I’m already having a great time! 
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I have to admit, a bit envious. Spain is definitely on my bucket list.
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I am so sorry. Thanks for sharing this with us. When I saw this thread, it was over 100 comments deep with words of advice, honesty, and encouragement. I wish all the time that I wasn’t an alcoholic, but threads like this one make me proud to be part of a community that shows such incredible resilience, empathy, and grit every day, one day at a time. I believe you can rack up those sober days again, and you can use this relapse to strengthen your resolve. I have felt that freight train of thinking before too. If you feel it again, make a promise to yourself that you post here before drinking, not after. I am certain you will get 100 responses again blocking that train, getting you to a safe place, and then blowing that wretched doom train up!
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Just catching up on your thread. You are a kind and caring human. So glad you vented here. Perfectionism, being human, people pleasing 
. You got such beautiful assistance here…wonderful and helpful to read. I hope your stay in Spain is full of wondrous adventure, restoration and all you wish…as you so deserve that. 
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Thanks @SassyRocks I appreciate your words, they mean a lot to me 
so far the trip has been just that - wonderful and restorative - and I’m feeling grateful for it! I’ve been thinking a lot about sobriety today and how amazing it is to be sober. It takes so much courage and determination to live this way, and yet here we are, doing our best and making the most of it, one day at a time
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I know what you mean about sobriety. I feel super lucky to be sober and not to be so obsessed with drinking or not or any of that crap anymore. It is also really weird no longer being that version of me…I drank for so very long. There was never an adult me that didn’t drink. I think about that a lot.
Enjoy Spain!!
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Im going to use this list most of it forsure
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You still did 2.5 yrs dust itself down and start again can’t change it now so remember the pain of it and start again
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Thanks @Lance83 I appreciate your comment. This mistake I made over 556 days ago now. I did start again, with renewed determination and a terrible reminder of what drinking alcohol = for me. I haven’t forgotten the pain. I don’t want to experience the regret of drinking or being drunk nor hangover again. I can’t stand it. Life without alcohol is the best version of life for me I hope your recovery journey is going well for you too. Having a community like this at hand makes a huge difference; I’m so grateful for it 
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That’s a great success story and fair play I’m on day 8 almost now I’ve slipped too many times myself but this time determined to get rid of alcohol from my life nice to talk about it on here and keeping me focused but I’m being cautious
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