Hello my names Corey, I’m 35 years old and a addict. It all started when I got this bartending job when I was 20 years old. I worked at a high end club. Making $300 in tips a night. Working 12am till 3:30am. I worked 3 nights a week making about $1000 after wages in about 14 hours. It was a great life. Went to work at 11pm to have a couple shots and a beer and I was ready to bartend/party by the time I started work. Every night I got free drugs. Cocaine constantly phone numbers from women all throughout the night. It was a great life.
After about a year I got fired because one of my buddies used a I’d of mine, he looked like me. And hit one of the workers there. After that I got a job at my parents which was a bar. Again I would go in early and have a few drinks before work. And we always got away drinking at the bar. As long as we were able.to function and not look or act drunk. After a year of working there I hung out with this girl, her name was Molly and she was so done bartender there. She was also a alcoholic or a partier as we thought. We fought constantly and after 3 and a half years we broke up.
A few months of being single this girl walked in the bar and she was stunning she was one of the hottest chicks I seen walk in the bar. I thought I gotta get this chicks number. So I did and we hung out after the bars closed. Long story short. We hit it off right away had a son after about a year of dating and broke up after 2 years. She was not a alcoholic.
After a few months one of my girlfriends invited me out with her and we went out to a comedy club with the guy she was seeing. First it was judt us three at the bar then she came in i turned around and I knew she was it. Again we hit it off right away.
After a year we had my second son. I was still drinking every night between 10 and 20 drinks. We fought alot after the first couple months. Another long story short I told her she needs to go last weekend. She has alot of family in town and her parents have 3 extra bedrooms so it wasn’t like I kicked her on the street. I was drunk and I heard from buddies she was cheating on me.
Anyway I could write for hours I just want to say I just because sober today after 13 years of drinking everyday. I did it because my right side kills. I feel fatigue all the time, I mostly did it because ubwant to be a better dad. I was my now 7 year old soccer coach last year and I want to do it again this year. Yes I can drink and be totally functionable but I change after I would say 15 -20 drinks. Never to my kids but I’m just not the same as I would like to be.
I know I left alot out. I’m tired and I feel off. From not drinking.
Actually I did quit drinking for 5 days April 11 2017 when my second son was born. I felt so out of it when we got out of the hospital. I would constantly go in rooms and not know why I went in them. After about 3 hours out of the hospital I had a drink and felt normal again.
I don’t know if i can maintain working and being sober.
*I don’t drink at work at my day job.
