i have ptsd from the mental hospital, and i get really bad flash backs and have bad nightmares about it. during one of my flashbacks i was scratching my skin with my nails. i didnt know i was, i didnt feel it. i broke out of my flash back and saw my arm was bleeding everywhere. i was so angry with myself and felt that i had let myself down. i was 1 month 15 days clean but now im back were i started. i only told my best friend because shes the only one i can tell. if i tell anyone else they will send me back to the phsyc ward and i will only be worse off. i dont know what to do. how can i stay clean if it happens when i dont know about it and im not able to stop because im not even there (mentally)? i need to know what to do.
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I donât know what you should do, I can see how this would not be a good place to be and not safe for you.
Could your friend stay with you for a while? You could consider wearing gloves a good bit of the time.
Can you get treatment for the PTSD from the mental hospital from somewhere other than there where you donât have the risk of being sent back?
Hopefully someone can help you get to the state of mind where you know where you are and what you are doing. I hope your friend can stay with you for a while.
im getting help from my therapist who specilizes in emdr which is trama therapy but we havemt started what is called âreprosessingâ yet which is what helps with the trama. i do lile the glove idea though thank youâşď¸
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