I keep it short. Im just done feeling broken, im sure i will keep drinking and sniff till i die. This broken feeling i live with over the past 6 years will never heal.
What every i try or want that fcked up feeling will be there and make me not wake up in the morning
Lately i flash back on my life. Thing i regret.
Some deep down i feel the end is near of the life and use is to a end.
I love life. But just hate the life and path i walking.
So many people arround me. But no one i feel like i can really talk to.
Its just… i dont know…
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Please don’t give up. You can turn your life around. The addiction makes everything feel worse, not better. We just make the decision one day at a time - it sounds trite but it’s true. Sending warm thoughts to you.
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I hear you, Rik and I am sorry things look dark at the moment. It’s part of the addiction, to feel hopeless and like nothing makes sense and we are all alone. It’s what makes it such a cunning and cruel disease. You’ve come to the right place here - we can all relate and you can always share with us.
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Reminds me of me.
If youre still breathing you still have a chance.
Start tomorrow. Yes it will be uncomfortable.
Wish you all the best.
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This is the glimmer of hope in your tale. At any moment you can change that path. It is hard, it does take time and work but it is very rewarding. Don’t give up. You can pivot. 🩶
Get serious about your recovery. You joined here 68 days ago… you’ve visited 8 days since then for a total of 10 minutes of read time. If this is your only sobriety support that effort just isn’t gonna cut it. You cannot wish sobriety into existence but you can will it. I really hope to see you around here more, we can help eachother. Best wishes.
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I’ve been on a long binder myself. Don’t give up, sobriety is better. I’ve ruined a lot these last couple weeks. You gotta be serious and put in a lot of work. Can’t say I’m doing that but it’s what it takes
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Good to see you here. I hope you can get back on some solid footing. 
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Kick it up a notch buddy. Wish you all the best.
Always here for ya.
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