I threw half a bottle of vodka away. I’m hungover again, I’ve been sick and my anxiety is through the roof. I want to never want another alcoholic drink, or cigarette, ever again! I want to be a good role model for my daughter. I don’t want to do this awful dance anymore.
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Good. You are sick of it. I think a lot of people feel that way eventually: sick and tired of being sick and tired.
What’s next? Do you want to join a group? There’s a list here: Resources for our recovery
Is there anything you want to learn, or figure out? There’s lots of people sharing here 
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I dont know. Maybe buy a book on recovery? Visit here regularly? How do people do this? I don’t think willpower alone is gonna happen
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This was the point I reached when I quit as well.
I was beyond sick of my cycle of drinking, hungover, drinking to cope with the anxiety of a hangover and so on.
I finally made the decision and I know it’s not easy, but I found this app extremely helpful, especially in the first couple of months.
You can do this! 
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Hi @scaredsmol, welcome to the team and great to hear you have started on your sobriety journey!
Some people will say that “when you fail to plan, you plan to fail” and with that in mind, it may be good for you to think about a sobriety plan.
Here are some good resources to help you get started:
Hope to see you around here often, good luck!
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Thank you for your responses. That post is really helpful! Ive just bought Allen Carr’s book as I know the smoking one really helped my mum.
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You dont ever have to drink again if you dont want to!
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Thank you. I know you’re right. Now I need to fight the f*ck it demon!
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If you don’t know what to do, immerse yourself in all things recovery and learn. This place is a goldmine of useful information. AA played an invaluable role in my recovery by teaching me how to live life sober. Podcasts, books, youtube videos, there’s so much out there. Do it all! Try anything different. Don’t stop until you find what works for you. If change is what you want, then things needs to change 
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…when I came Sober Time the “Checking in daily” thread was of great help.
Check it out…
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Being desperate to change,man I can recall that feeling, the confusion and self hate. You’re in a good place to help you grow your sobriety.
Here’s a really good list of ways people here, particularly women, have stayed sober. Blessings on your house as you begin your journey.
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I’m newly sober and love it! This community was a big part of me getting my sober legs under me. I don’t have a lot of advice but let’s just get through today.
Whatever, today brings don’t pick up that first drink. If you make it through today and get your head to the pillow tonight sober. Then you win today, over the demon alcohol brain. Then you can get up tomorrow not freshly hangover (which will feel so much better) and do it again. Don’t worry about forever, just today!
You can do it!! You are not alone!
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Like @Just_Laura said… immerse yourself in everything recovery. I’m sixty two days alcohol free. And when I first started and even up to today, I did AA zoom meetings daily and just hearing people and their stories really helped me. And boy did I cry when I shared. I hated being in that cycle of drinking and the hangovers and the being sick to my stomach all the time. The more days I get clean, the more I grow as a person because it’s not just a boat quitting the drink. It’s about changing our behaviors and reaching our full potential. Alcohol doesn’t help but it dampens who we are, it Encourages that demon to come out. Just for today, you don’t have to drink, just for today, you can have a calming, beautiful day. Keep coming back 
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Welcome @scaredsmol , you have come across an amazing community of like minded and supportive folks.
I am far from seasoned in my sobriety, at just 300 days today. One thing I have found is that while I progressed and went through a couple small lapses of visiting the site, I noted that I missed the stories. I loved the reality of all that come here.
It’s very much a two way street. I love reading the stories of new folks that have finally realized they’ve had enough and draw energy from their need to be free. In return those new folks get to see how to live with this new found freedom and all the positives it brings from the many successful and caring folks here that stay engaged.
It’s not easy and definitely not always pretty, but one thing I assure there is always someone here ready to listen and be there when you need it most. We may not all have all the answers but collectively I think it’s pretty solid.
Read, write, share, engage… start new hobbies and drop them. Sleep, eat, rest, heal, but mostly keep coming back and being engaged… it truly is what helped me the most to begin and still reading and hearing folks shares keeps me going.
If you want this, and I mean really want this for you and a better future then I know you can and will make it. It’s all about how hard you wanna hold onto that life you’ve always wished for… it’s right there in front of you and you’ve made that first step… congratulations 
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Thank you everyone for your kind replies. My mum had a word with me today about my drinking without knowing anything about me coming here or my intentions. I think that says a lot about where I am and how much I need to change. So i’m going to! I need some new hobbies.
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What a terrific wonderful post. All so true! I am definitely bookmarking.
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Its the beginning of something wonderful 
, Now you get to live!!! Create instead of consume!!! Im so excited for you! It makes my heart happy to read your post. Welcome to the fam!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷
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