Welcome Kaitlyn. First, I am sure they don’t hate you. They are probably just irritated at your behavior. That will pass.
If you continue to drink, it won’t get easier to quit. Trust me on this.
Start by absorbing as much information on this forum as possible. Read and post. Read and post. Make a plan, decide on a “program,” whether formal or informal. Decide on why this is important, including the things you already mentioned.
Start with that link. People will add on. I am glad you’re here!