I’m sorry to hear you are having a hard time Owalid, how are you doing today?
Still struggeling?
Early days are difficult but you can push trough it. It will be better day after day! You have the power inside you to bite trough the hard part.
Stay connected, be here and talk about your struggles.
Have you read this thread already?
It can be helpful for you.
Connection is key in recovery, so stick arount buddy! 
You do want to be sober, but you do not want to feel this way and I totally understand that!
But it’s a temporary feeling. It will be better. First the sour, then the sweet 