In my dream last night I was at a friend’s house and we were eating pizza. I grabbed a bottle of beer from the fridge and drank it quickly. It was only after I drank it that I remembered, “Oh yeah, I’m not drinking.”
The craving was there. I was searching for more beer. I remembered that I needed to reset this app I felt disappointment and shame. I also didn’t plan on resetting it soon. I wondered how long I would be drinking again. Weeks… months…? It was like I already failed so…
So… I’ll tell you, I will not by drinking today. Thanks for the warning dream!
I had a few of those in the first few weeks. At the liquor store buying booze. Would wake up and feel disappointed and then realize it was just a dream.
I had many dreams like this during my first couple of weeks. I felt so glad they were just dreams when I woke up, also made me feel really proud of myself and my sobriety. I’ve learned to love every morning waking up sober. I lost so much time being hungover or feeling like crap and being lazy, wasting the days away. It’s a whole new life every morning. Im thankful and taking advantage of every minute now and so should you!
The thoughts keeps creeping in: I can drink with control, it’s not a big deal, I’ll be fine, I deserve a drink.
It’s good to get a “free dream” reminder of how bad I will feel if I have a drink. I won’t be in control, I’ll just want more and more and then feel terrible.
That is what addiction does. It doesn’t want you to get better so it tries to convince you that it isn’t that bad. You haven’t given in. Just don’t believe the lie…that great cosmic joke it tries to play on us. We will never be able to go back to drinking in moderation. It will not work. It will kill us eventually. You are strong. Best wishes on your journey
I think it’s a sign of you are doing well. Even in your dream, when you see the booze, you know you shouldn’t drink it. It’s a sign that your brain is accepting your cause. Keep on the good job. One day at a time.
I, too, have had dreams of having a drink and instantly being SO disappointed in myself. It is such a relief to wake up and realize it didn’t really happen. The dream feels so real as well as the disappointment that it pushes me to not submit to my cravings.
