I feel like I am going crazy

Help! I am 25 days sober today. I literally no joke feel like I am going crazy. I knew it wouldn’t be easy getting sober but I thought by 25 days I would be a little better and feel better. I am crying all of the time, going crazy on my family, my husband is literally on the verge of leaving me for real because I seem always down, angry and I am not treating him nice… I am always lashing out on him about something. He is so distant towards me right now and keeps calling me crazy and psycho which makes me feel 10 times worse…does it get better? Has anyone else experienced something like this? I am going to aa all the time and talking with a counselor and that is literally the only time I feel have way human. I’m just sick of getting up in the morning because I know it will probably be another shitty day.

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Congratulations Laura on ur 25 days!! This is no easy accomplishment. I really want u to know that u are not alone in this! I feel like this is quite common actually. It was for me. For about 1-1.5 months I felt like I was on a constant rampage, super impatient, bitchy, I’d snap and was super short when talking to my hubby, I was just wound soo tightly and any little thing would set me off. I’d often say that I didn’t want to “people” today… as in, no I don’t want to deal or be around anyone. Quite frankly, recovery (especially in the beginning), is hard work! At least for me, (and maybe u can relate), but I was often exhausted every day. Trying to stay clean and sober and change our thinking, and just trying to be a better version of ourselves, on top of having to fix issues that drinking and drugging caused, added up and I became overwhelmed and a complete witch quite frankly. I really needed an outlet for this energy. I found exercise helped alot. I also needed to schedule time for me. Self care was and still is so crucial for my recovery. There needs to be time for just you :slight_smile: time for ur own needs. I think us in recovery tend to forget that piece and how crucial self care is for our recoveries. Paying attention to our bodies… when we are hungry, eat. Tired, sleep (altho this can be tough if u have a busy day). Angry, vent or exercise or anything that helps. Lonely, spend time with sober people :slight_smile: it’s trial and error, just trying to find out what works for u. I have no idea if this will help lol I started rambling lol but easy does it! Ur going thru alot right now :slight_smile: it does get better!

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Hi can I just ask but are you always wrong with your husband or dose he make you feel your always wrong? And well your doing great on your own. It’s you doing this x

Just I’ve been sober ages, I don’t put the months or years on it as it made me feel I’ve a problem, but your story. You’ve come so far

Just maybe your not wrong x

Yes, :100: he makes me feel like I am always wrong or some sort of guilt about how I am acting or being. I always find myself apolozing all the time and he never apologies for his actions. I am definitely finding this more and more thur sober eyes.

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Maybe he likes you drunk as the everything is your fault it’s all you! But now its your turn. Be strong and be you x

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Hi Laura. You’re not alone with this, I was like this whilst drinking too. What has helped me is CBT and anti depressants. Go speak with your Dr and have a chat about how you’re feeling, how far you have come and what options you might have. x

Hello! I know and understand the struggle. What you are experiencing is something called “dry drunk.” Dry drunk is when you are sober but you are moody, irritable, and discontent. You haven’t found something to help fill that void where the alcohol used to fill. You have to try and find meaning and purpose in something that makes you happy. Gravitate your time towards meetings and meeting other people that suffer the same illness we all suffer. I know this sounds very cliche but give yourself to a higher power. It helps.

Also try looking up dry drunk and read about it. Some people might have better advice to deal with this.

I see you go to AA if you haven’t got a sponsor yet and started to do the steps I strongly suggest this, it helped me look at myself and others in a better way. If you are doing this already then work harder at it, maybe see the doc as you might have other stuff going on but 25 days is great but also very early to be dealing with emotions we’ve never had to deal with, I’m 22 months today and still learning,always will be.
Quick trick - take some breathes before you open your mouth and think how your actions are going to affect others, if it’s negative THINK AGAIN.

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Two things could be going on. Certainly emotions are all over the place in early sobriety and you may be more sensitive, irritable, etc.
Also, relationship dynamics are set a certain way during drinking times, and when you stop those dynamics no longer work and will take time to reset.
I am glad you are attending AA and a counselor, they are not instant fixed but surely must be helping.

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