I gave in . My pinky is swollen and really bruised so I used that as an excuse to justify it. I feel like a failure after JUST earning my 7-day badge. Disappointed isn’t even enough to describe the way I feel.
I had two small puffs off a disposable vape THC pen and immediately threw it away. That chest discomfort came back immediately from when I quit 7 days ago. I don’t know if it’s anxiety or what, but it’s not worth it. I am grateful relapsing is uncomfortable. It’s a lesson that I didn’t know I needed.
The worst part is I was just starting to feel healthier again.
Hey, you have still accomplished a lot in the last seven days. I think you regretted giving in because you value your sobriety. Get back on the wagon, we’re going to Sobertown.
Like @tailee17 said, get all vapes, cigarettes, cigars, pipes, etc. out of your home. If I tried to get sober with a fridge full of beer, I wouldn’t last a day. Don’t pick up a cigarette. Get rid of them. At the very least, if the vapes etc aren’t at hand, it forces you to go out to get them. Ideally, during that time you have second thoughts, you message TS, and you realize you don’t really want to go back.
I really dont like to read books but since i fly alot to new york and in a uber 1 hour rides to and from jfk . But i actually picked up mattew parrys book
Friends, Lovers and the Big Terrible Thing .i like it so far and helps me on days that are hard stressful days.
Thank you I appreciate the advice! The only thing I had was that vape since I threw everything away last week. Thankfully it wasn’t an enjoyable experience and I threw out the vape immediately after giving in (I bought it yesterday)
. My pinky is swollen and really bruised so I used that as an excuse to justify it. I feel like a failure after JUST earning my 7-day badge. Disappointed isn’t even enough to describe the way I feel.
