I just can’t do it. Staying clean. I keep trying but always fail. It’s pointless
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What you have tried up to this point has not worked. Try something different. Just like drinking/using, even though you hate it, can happen every day, so can sobriety. Build sobriety as a habit just like using was. I’ll stay sober with you today. Today is day 629 alcohol free for me. You don’t fail until you quit trying.
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Don’t Give up. I failed so many Times but kepts trying. Until one day It just clicked…for today. If you Can fond meetings and go as often as you Can to feel the support. You are not alone. Thinking about you Hope you’ll be fine. Be kind with yourself
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Yes definitely you are back and trying again, i keep coming back myself, we can do this ,this shit is hard ,but not as hard as us , stay on here strenth sent x
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Hi Queeny, i tried loads of times to get sober by myself before i found this place and thats what made the difference…a community that understood that i could vent to, learn from and get support from, im 14 months sober and ive been on here pretty much every day of that time, i couldnt be sober without it, stop beating yourself up you can do it but you cant do it alone, stick with us
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“Fall down seven times, stand up eight.”
It’s 100% not pointless if you decide to stick with it which I hope you do one day you will realize it’s worth it good luck and much success. 
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It sounds trite, but I think the first days are the hardest. You decide to start a sober life, but you are still hungover from the last binge. You still can’t “feel the earth” under your feet, lat alone walk.
Firstly, try to overcome these first days. But, while you’re doing it, start making a plan to lead and keep your safe and that’s it.
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I can relate. I was constantly trying and failing. I’ve used so many different things and it really did take years of trying and failing, but slowly I did succeed–one thing at a time. It was not ideal, but its how I did it because I didn’t seek out help or the companionship of others who understood until I was at the tail end of this cyclical hellscape.
You can definitely do this. All successful people have failed many many times. And yes some people can put the drink / drug down and never backstep, but many others have to restart time and again before finding success.
If you want to be sober, then that is the point. You are worth it.
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I’m just like the rest who failed a hundred times until the day I actually started to put some effort into it and accepting recovery for what it was… A complete fucking nightmare until one day you go " Hey I didn’t think about picking up for an hour or so,weird"
Short term sacrifices = long term rewards.
Top is AA the other NA. Both 24 hours a day.
No excuse to be alone with your own thoughts.
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Keep trying thats all you can do plus you have to do this 4 U 
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There are two very hard options. Keep using, and life will get worse and worse. You will lose more things: material, psychological. Get clean, and it will be hard, very hard, but it will get easier. Choose your hard.
Something that didn’t work before might work now because you are in a different place. Maybe you will hit on a certain combo that works. It only has to stick once to stick forever. If you give up then it really is over. Surely you want to keep fighting for your health, your dignity, your peace of mind?
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Thank you. I’m so tired I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up. I’m at the bottom and I don’t even no if I’ve got the fight left in me. I wish I could just go
Is that a zoom meeting? I need an online addiction help but they charge so much.
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Thank you ALL for your support and lovely messages. It really means a lot. 
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@Queeny, you’re worth the life you’ve always dreamed, and that life is achievable, but to to get there, you need to take a long look at yourself and ask, “what am I willing to do to get sober?”
One a scale of 1 to 10, where 1 is just white knuckling it, and 10 is 90 day rehab, relocation, and completely removing yourself from your current situation. Where would you land?
A lot of us addicts and alcoholics were only willing to do a 1 until we finally learned it didn’t work. Stepping up the scale was necessary.
Personally, after white knuckling didn’t work for me, I was willing to do more. I was willing to to AA, I was willing to join a sober community (here), I was willing to keep an open mind and try things others suggested, even if I didn’t want to, I was willing to provide whatever support I could to others… and at the end of the day, if that didn’t work, I was willing to take the next step.
You’re worth it @Queeny, just be honest when answering, what are you willing to do.
I wish you well! 
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You’ll never know until you try. Go to bed sober tonight. Sleep extra long if you need to. Try to go to bed tomorrow sober. If that gets hard hop on here or tune into a meeting. Stack some sober days and tackle the hurdles as they come up. I believe in you. 🩷
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Both zoom yes, 24 hours a day with people just like you. We know, we understand and I promise you are not alone.
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Thank you for your message. I would say 8
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Keep trying! I’ve released a few times as well. Many of us did. But keep trying and keep coming back!
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Hope your doing good on your drinking Queeny.