A year and close to 4 months in…
Ive found myself seeking out more movies about addicts getting or trying to sober up. Usually alcoholics like myself. For example i just watched Beach Bum; It reminds me of the parts i miss ;Of the free feeling… the letting go and just being. Im glad im past the point of it being an everyday feeling.
But as the movie progresses and i watch the lows, the pain the deepest despair that goes with that freedom. The fall that i dont miss. The one thats almost impossible to handle because you’re just riding a way with no sense of control or/of self. No idea to how it started or where it will end.
I almost wonder if this seem to be habit is potentially triggering…
Anyway im excited to soon hit a year and half. Thanks for letting me getthat off my chest.
Doesn’t sound like you hate being sober? Congrats on 16 months. We are almost twins. I’m nov 2 2017
Don’t quit before the miracle happens & there are miracles happening everyday.
The tricky part about non-sober life, I’ve found, is that you get too used to the “WOW!!” moments of being high (which are NOT real). Those moments seem underwhelming when youre sober, sometimes for many years, and regular life is comparatively dull.
But then something weird happens.
You have a moment or two, stone-cold sober, when you feel overwhelmed with peace and beauty.
No substances involved.
That will refuel your purpose. It WILL come to you, you just have to be looking for it.
Don’t despair, and don’t forget why you’re getting sober in the first place!
Almost. Dec 17th for me
Well said!
I cant agree more. Being drunk exaggerates every regular thing. They are the same moment sober, if you need to be drunk to enjoy it then thats a problem in itself. Dont dont drink to up your life. Up your life!
December 3 for me. I gotta tell you, my experience has been totally different. I don’t miss not being in control, being at the mercy of the booze, counting down the hours until I could drink again. I don’t miss all those wasted hours, time I spend now getting better, stronger, smarter.
My life is nothing short of great. I have so little to complain about. And to think all I had to do to unlock this life was to give up something that was trying to kill me.
I hope you find your way to this place. I love it here.