So live in a different state(ohio) then where I am from… and i came back to my original home (Illinois) to visit. And I am not gonna lie kinda fell off I been here not even 12 hours and I have fell off with coke and alcohol! I’m so disappointed in my self. I took my self from this life to better my self by moving to ohio and here I am high and drunk writing this. I am so disappointed and felling like I let my self and everyone in my life down. I’m here till the 24th and I’m scared it’s not gonna let up till I leave. Because everyone I know here drinks and does coke. This ain’t the life I want. But its honestly the life I am used to. But I didnt want this to happen. I wasn’t planning on this at all. I kept telling my self it wasn’t gonna happen. Bitnit did… I’m sorry everyone!
Have you considered going to AA or NA?
Bless you @Nicole_Schertz, addiction is a sneaky thing with triggers everywhere. Try and get a meeting if you can…I’m sending you strength and love my friend. 
Oh no, sorry to hear this. It is good that you reached out here. Stop drinking and using, get outside and take a walk, nap, cry, or hell, head back to your new place early…make up some excuse and just go. Or head to a meeting every day if you need that. Please don’t go down the rabbit hole. You are worth more than that.
And I am moving this post to the opt in Seeking Help section. Your notifications will take you there, but you should also opt in. It is a good place to post if you are actively using.
I had to reconcile within myself that all of my friends from when i used, had to be dismissed and wished well. I had no choice because their travels weren’t my own and the best way to help them is show them by example. I even avoid visiting my old neighborhood for years because of the triggers. Eventually it gets better but you have to respect the disease.
Tomorrow is a new day. Don’t beat yourself up to the point that you give up. Everyday is a new day and a new opportunity. I’m rooting for you!