I made it 150 days. I felt I was on my way to complete sobriety. That was not so. My people in my circle is one my spouse. I have outside people AA. Also have medical resources on my side. Along with oh, my talking, sober folks. The outside resources are very much a positive pad on the back for my accomplishments. My closest resources are not so amicable. The outside resources seem to think that I should rid myself of my people. Sometimes I agree when I’m hurting. I’m a little old-school when you commit to something even in a relationship you hold on and fight for what you originally believed. Unfortunately sobriety changes the rules. I’m at a loss. I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m tired.
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Your experience helps me
Thank you for posting
Ive been craving all day but if i pick up, ill just be right back here
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As to being on your way to complete sobriety, why not still? Pick up the pieces and continue. This does not have to mean the end at all. You could do it for 150 days, you can do it again, and longer. Just not pick up that first drink ever again and you’ll be fine. You got us. You got AA. You got your relationship you want to fight for. That fight is much better done sober too. One day at a time for all of us. I’m glad you’re here 
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Kind words thank you. Original plan was sobriety and save my marriage. Sobriety came easy. Marriage is over. Sorry life sucks.
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If I’m reading this right did your marriage not survive this relapse?
You can pick yourself back up from a slip anytime you are ready to try again. I encourage that to be sooner than later.
Use your people and use your communities. Addiction wants you isolated, but connection makes quitting more tolerable. I’m sorry you are struggling.
If in fact, your spouse left after this relapse please don’t let it drag you down. Stay with us. 🩶🩷
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You never lose the knowledge you pick up along the way. Keep going. Whatever it takes. One day at a time.
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No sobriety journey caused marriage ending. Too much energy and time was utilized for sobriety and Husband felt the energy could’ve been used to provide task uncompleted for him.
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I’m sorry to hear of your pain and troubles.
Whether your partner has left for good, only time will tell. And that is out of your control. What is in your control is to not drink. Unfortunately, often when things start to feel good and secure is when we can slip. Any of us are just one bad day, one poor decision away from relapse. It often takes a long time to truly learn that. It took me years. But the only thing to do is to keep working on recovery.
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Ah! So it was almost a choice between sobriety or your husband?
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Sounds like gaslighting to me. Sobriety is for you. Sounds to me your husband doesn’t respect your life choices and your luck. Your happiness. I’m sorry.
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Sounds like the person closest to you does not have your happiness at heart. I would reconsider if I even wanted to be in that marriage.
You can start again today w day 1. You have tools and you have the will. You ca do this. But only you can!
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If complete sobriety is your goal, you are still on that path. Relapse is an interruption of your progress along that path. It can be a brief and temporary interruption, a long-term interruption, or a permanent interruption. You get to choose.
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This hurt my heart to read; I’m sorry you faced such an awful choice, but I also can not imagine a loving person ever wanting their partner to choose illness over their own health and well-being.
Sober you is better off without. Addition by subtraction!
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I am sorry about your marriage and your husband’s attitude. I hope you can recommit to yourself and your sobriety. At the end of the day, married or not, you still deserve a healthy healing sober life.
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For me my wife had enough of my drinking it wasnt till then that i knew i had to sort my life out and i did not with my wife we got divorced two weeks after i left i went to AA and im still sober today got married again have two sons and im happy that was a wise decision in1986 , as for relapse havnt experienced that yet .
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