I recently was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder back in march and my whole life i couldn’t keep consist people around push people away. So i started drinking in hopes i would make friends but i didnt. I hope one day i am healed enough to have at least one or two good friends.
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Hey girl. I used to think I had bpd as well, which I might have. But I realized I am actually high functioning autistic. How old r u we could be friends even if we live far away 
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I just turned 31 back in june. I went through alot of diagnosis and theories before i found out i have BPD. How old are you ?
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I was diagnosed with BPD about 10 years ago or so. What helped me to be able to build those relationships and to be able to have a good quality life while managing BPD, was actually DBT and met meds (Dialectal behavioural therapy). I highly suggest asking your Dr about it. It was free to me but i also live in canada. So im not sure if there is a cost in other areas. But if u want, check it out. It really helped me with my BPD thinking and intense emotions. And of course staying clean and sober helps tremendously 
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We’ve discussed that before and i have been working on building those skills.
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Okay great! I hope it helps u
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The thing i keep encountering is other people not coping with their mental health. I try to hang out with people i considered friends but they were always busy with something and never had time to go through with plans.
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Im not going to say that these diagnosis are wrong, I’m not a dr. And I may suffer some form of this as well, I’ve never taken the time to seek help.
I think not having friends, as you put it, or not fitting in with the clique, as I see it, doesnt make a person dysfunctional, you, I or we just operate on a different frequency than people who do, ‘social butterfies’ I call them. Im just not that type of person. Maybe as a young man I may have imbued the quality to ‘fit in’.
Arent we all!?!? And thats where I find myself still not wanting to assimilate. Why try to fit in with people who arent confronting their mental health? Whats the point? I consider myself to be functioning on a higher frequency and thats why/how I cant vibe with normies.
I was seeking salvation and a remedy to all this when I gave my life over to Jesus 8 yrs ago. I prayed on it long and hard. The answer I recieved was, God wants me to be a man of the gospel. He doesnt want me to be a man of this world, who finds friendship with people who arent aligned with the gospel.
My beliefs have drove off many people. And I dont take it as a loss, its alignment.
Prayers for you on your journey. Keep getting better at getting better.
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Im glad you were able to find your calling and continue to spread love and light. I do like to be by myself alot of the time. Being around people can exhausting. People with borderline, are super empaths and i feel like people like pick up on that and just drain the energy out of me.
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I was diagnosed with BPD and CPTSD, many years ago. I went through many doctors and meds, but somehow nothing really worked. I started to abuse Alcohol and Marijuana. It helped me cope in the beginning, but later it just made things worse.
I don’t have any real friends. I could never hold on to them. Just acquaintances. Never had anyone I could connect with. I have too many demons in my past and if I did open up to someone, they would probably not believe me. Most people live in thier own comfort bubble and do not understand the real meaning of trauma.
My wife is the closest thing to a friend. She knows more about my past that anyone else. But even she doesn’t know it all.
I got off Marijuana a few months ago and now I am trying to get off Alcohol. I have accepted the reality that I am damaged goods and will never be totally “normal”. But I am trying to make things better. My addictions wer only making things worse. I am quite sure I will be better off without them.
I miss not having friends but that’s just who I am. I am trying to accept myself for who I am. It’s tough but what other choice do I have.
There are too many misconceptions about BPD and most people do not understand what we go though and why we are what we are. But that’s okay. It is okay to be different.
You are imperfectly perfect. You are okay.
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My trauma was caused by females in my family and then later my female “friends.” I wanted chick friends but i just do not get along with other females.
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I did a lot of research on BPD. Trying to understand why my brain is wired weird. Apparently, not have “friends” is a very common trait.
Strangely enough when I do try to connect with friends I get bored after a while and just move away. It’s like I want friends and at the same time I don’t. An ironic paradox.
Some of the best experiences I’ve had have been by myself. It is as if solitude suits me. BPD folks like us are “complicated” to say the least 
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In my case my trauma was caused by my dear own mother. My elder brother died. I survived.
Same! My mother abandoned me when i was 4 and she is a malignant narcissist, who refuses to acknowledge her mental health or get any kind of help for it. I havent seen or spoken to her in almost 6 years.
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Aww I’m 22 but we can still b friends I feel u making friends after highschool / college is a struggle asf
We can be friends, is understand feeling like you don’t have friends
Feel free to message me at any time.
My parents were not very good at parenting ( which is a bit of an understatement).Then there was abuse I endured as a kid too (not by my parents). These things combined have made it virtually impossible for me to truly trust people. And therefore to form true friendships. Actually it’s a wonder I do have some friends at all but I do, don’t ask me how that happened. I never had a one-on-one romantic relationship with someone.
Anyway, gaining some of that trust in people is what I have been working on since I became sober. I’ve been diagnosed with a PD (part borderline, part avoidant) but could just as well have a diagnosis of something (early) trauma related. And the only good thing that diagnosis gave me is the possibility to participate in group schema therapy, which really helped me in recognizing my motives, the way I react to people and situations, to recognize how I feel, to reconnect my head with my body a bit. And thus how to form better friendships too. Still very much a work in progress. The diagnosis is just a label. use it to your advantage to better yourself.
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It’s hard making friends after college/high school in my small town no matter what you’re diagnosed with. Throw sobriety in the mix and there goes 98% of the population in and around my age group. All I have are the people in the program on zoom and my family. It is hard but once my son is done high school in 2.5 years. I may be making a move.
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I don’t agree with a medical diagnosis being just a label. But then again i take mental health more seriously than physical health.