Hi Ash,
The trick to stopping drinking is to stay stopped until we get to bed sober each night. And that can be very difficult, I know.
Maybe an inpatient detox would be a place to start for you, or an inpatient or outpatient rehab. These things require a full daily commitment to staying sober. It was impossible for me to live my usual life and stay sober. So my life was upended for a while and I was able to stick with not drinking each day.
Growing our sobriety is different from not drinking. I hope you find a way to start that growth soon, maybe even today.