Today, I made an appointment with an addictions counselor and searched for my local AA chapter so I could start attending meetings. I had never allowed myself to admit to myself that I struggled with alcoholism because I was so incredibly ashamed of myself, but after almost losing the woman I am proposing to this summer, I finally put aside my guilt and my shame, accepted that I have a serious problem, and made the decision to seek help. Honestly, I am terrified of admitting to myself that I am an alcoholic and of going to an AA meeting because that makes it all seem so real. But I am so ready to finally begin recovering from this and to have to joy back.
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Welcome to the group and congratulations to making the step towards a better and healthier life. This is an amazing place with a lot of lovely people who went through the same thing as you. You’ll always find support here. Read around and check out some of threads and posts. And just remember - every first step feels uncomfortable. But the second will already feel easier than the one before. You got this!
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Welcome to the group and congratulations on wanting to make a change in your life for your relationships and for yourself. It will be a beginning of a new and better life for you, I do expect and hope. Lots of support for you here at this site also.
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Welcome Vann, im glad you finally admitted things to yourself thats a great step, the guilt and shame are a well known feature of the lives of us addicts that we all understand here…many of us have been where you are now myself included so id like to send you the biggest hug and to let you know that we are here for you…in time that guilt and shame can be turned into a sober life with happiness, pride and integrity but dont try and do this alone, be here often…everyday ideally…us addicts all need each other to get through, my love to you. 
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Yes, this is so difficult isn’t it! I still remember my first message here on this forum admitting I had a serious alcohol problem.
But at the same time I felt relieved.
Relieved to finally talk about it. Adressing my issues and find a group of people that understands where I was going trough.
So a warm welcome for you here! This place is a huge part of my recovery. I’m sober for more then 5 years now. Not to brag, but to tell you it’s possible for everyone 
Put in work, a solid plan and accepting help from others and it looks like you are doing just that!
A good foundation to built your sobriaty at!! 
See you around 
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