Crap crap crap! I’m having a weak moment and I reeeeeaaaaalllllyyyyy want to cave! What do I do?!?
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It will pass. Stay here, keep talking and soon the moment will pass. I distracted myself a lot in the early days - games on my phone, reading sober literature, blogs, and here.
I am Jenny btw, welcome to the community.
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I’m trying. I’m trying so heard to not think about it. I feel like I wanna run away from my life. Just run!
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project yourself forward into tomorrow when you get to wake up and say “I AM SO FUCKING GLAD I DIDN’T CAVE YESTERDAY!!!”
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I get that so much, I really do. The early days are so hard as you have to learn new coping mechanisms. But the rewards are so worth it. If you cave you have to do this all again. @JuliaLuna is right, that feeling of waking up knowing you didn’t give in is priceless.
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I want to scream, ugly cries, hit something! I hate this! This is never ending torture! @JuliaLuna @JennyH
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HANG IN THERE NIZ!!!
It will pass. Promise. It may come back again, and then pass agaib and round it may go until…one day it dissipates. The more days you stack the easier it will become. Give yourself a bug ass hug, maybe try to do something nice for you like have a snack & watch something good or do something relaxinf or fun.
If you feel up to it, and again this is only a suggestoon so please know its not me telling you to do this, but if it helps maybe journal or talk to that part of you. Like hey drinking self, what is it youre trying to achieve here? What is it you want? How are you feeling? Maybe…you may find some helpful answers within yourself. I have learned for me, that part of me that wants to drink she isnt a part of me to hate, shame and banish (much as I thought she was), shes a part of me that just learbed to cope long ago with things in an unhealthy way. Shes trying to help me in the only way she knows how, even if in the end its hella not helpful. Ive been working on connecting with her, turns out shes a really young part of me who needs a lot of love & compassion too.
Hope this helps a little & know you are not alone. Great for you reaching out xo.
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That has really helped me, thank you. I will start showing that part of me more compassion
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Can you get out for a walk, run? Or have a bath. Not sure what time it is where you are but getting into pyjamas helped me. It signalled staying in.
Is there any way you can put your matress at an up angle and kick and punch it?? Or a few pillows? Screams INTO the pillow. I have done that one. Cry that ugly cry we have all been there. It makes you feel weak, but those emotions are anything but. They are, i believe, part of us trying to heal and sometimes that part of us needs to let it out.
Im sending you so much strength. Im also not sure if its a good idea to recommend anyone go buy and ax and just start going at a tree stump, but I put quite a dent in a trunk and it…it was emotional. Xo.
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Then go running… sobre if my worst cravings i worked through with exercise. Get rid of that anxious energy.
How are you now Niz? Dont try to run from the emotions…go with how you feel it needs to come through you…do the crying…scream into a pillow…hit something soft…i think we get so used to numbing its no surprise that we want to go to our DOC its how we have wired our brain…i know myself i numbed everything with drink for so long and for every little thing i forgot what i was even escaping from