I’m ready to drink. A glass of some sounds so appealing right now. I work for a Fortune 500 company but a smaller division that is so dis functional. My job is so stressful. If someone doesn’t want to do, it’s dumped on me. No one owns their role. If something isn’t done or someone screws up I have to answer for it, This job is why I started drinking at noon.
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That’s a lot of power to let a job have over you… any chance you can look for a different job?
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Don’t let anything make you feel like you need to drink. It’s definitely not going to help. I know it’s hard but push through it. It’s worth it. 
Also, read around here; check out the thread, “what you did the last time that made you want to stop”.
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No job is worth it to drink again @DanaM56 and you know it yourself. I’m so sorry to hear you’re having such a tough time. Push through it, you’re stronger than you think.
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@Dan531 yes I can. The company I work for overall is a great place to work. This division is just a mess. I have 12 days before I’m eligible to look for another job internally.
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Part of the problem is the pressure I put on myself to be perfect. I know it sounds ridiculous but it’s a coping mechanism from childhood trauma.
I’ve also not been consistent with my medication.
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doesn’t sound ridiculous at all. grateful that in 12 days you will be able to look for a different position. Hang in there - no one and definitely no job is worth losing your sobriety over.
I’ve seen how hard you are working on yourself. You are now recovering from your operation too and feeling so well. Keep up with the sobriety - the fun perks are yet to come (better sleep, better attitude, healthier, more energy, …so many more).
Much strength my friend - you are stronger than your addiction.
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Thank you everyone for the support and guidance. It is much appreciated. 
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Thanks for sharing openly and honestly about your stuff. That’s how it’s done. Don’t internalize it and try to ‘solve’ it yourself by the only way we learned when we were young, which is to not show any weakness, to be perfect and take refuge in substance abuse. Instead bring into the open the stuff that’s holding you down and back. And share about it and get feedback and learn from that and grow. Thanks again. Big hugs. x
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I quit my job the week I got sober. Same situation, and I knew that there wouldn’t ever be a break in the stress. Your sobriety is more important. Quitting my job was harder than surrendering to alcohol, but they were one in the same. I can now see that looking back 2.5 years. Then at 7 months diagnosed with breast cancer, which I know was caused by elevated stress for a couple of decades and alcohol. Again, your sobriety is more important. There are other jobs and opportunities.
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It’s not ridiculous, and I would say a majority of people here have struggled with perfectionism. It eventually breaks us down, then we can let go, or continue to suffer.
I stayed with my org as well. It is a great company, but the role wasn’t right. I have a new role (I took five months off after I got sober) with no stress and less pay. Worth it.
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To drink isnt the answer though…it doesnt help with anything…the problems are still there afterward even made worse sometimes, nothing good comes from it.
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How you doing Dana? Hope you’re enjoying a relaxing weekend.
Hello Anne, I’m doing much better. The urge to drink did pass. I’m looking into attending a SMART meeting this weekend. There are several in my area online. I also have a therapy appointment tomorrow. I appreciate you checking on me.
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Good hearing from you Dana and it’s great you doing better. It is one day at a time bit some days are harder.
Have a happy sober weekend my dear.
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