I’m sorry, 109 days gone, had alot of anxiety today and in a split second It was in my hand and down my throat. It was almost out of anger and frustration… so yea just being honest
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Those 109 days aren’t gone. They happened. Then this day happened. So you start counting over, and this time you push right on past 109.
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Shit happens. All we can do is reflect and try to figure out where things went wrong and try to do better next time just don’t give up it’s not worth spiraling backwards
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You came back, dear @Button83, with honesty and openness, and that tells me - and more importantly you - that this is where you want to be. Stay here with us!
I believe in you. 
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Being honest is important. I’m glad that you are here to begin again. You have the support of the community…
You’re not weak. It’s just something that happened. It happens. You learn what you learn from it and you go on, big hugs to you, and all the support, as you continue on your journey.
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I’ve been there. Not a great feeling. But like you I’ve also been honest - I am always completely honest with my sponsor and my recovery friends - and so I know where I am now, and what I am doing today.
I think the honesty opens the door. Walking through is a different process, but the honesty is what open the door.
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A lot of us where were you are.
It sucks, but don’t let it determinate you. Keep your eye on your goal and you will get there.
It’s like 2 steps forward and 1 backwards, it’s still forward
So keep going, you did 109 so you know how to do it! 
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Well this can be a small bump in the road or a total train wreck… the choice is yours. Get up, dust yourself off and move on with more knowledge.
You’re learning about yourself and a new way to live. It can be challenging, but I assure you it’s very much worth it. Best wishes
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We live, we learn.
There’s a saying in AA ’ sometimes quickly sometimes slowly’ the point is we keep trying. There are people on here who have known me for years and in the early days thought I was one of the hopeless cases but like you I knew inside what I wanted and one day it just happened, it was a 30 year overnight success. When you can you will 
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Great job on already sharing it with us.
This is about addiction.
This is not about you.
The sooner you can work with that instead of guilt and shame, the sooner you can move on.
Hugs and strength 
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You’re still fighting? Then you’re not weak
Keep up the good fight 
, we’ve all been there
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Thanks for being honest, thanks for being here. Keep going. We get up after we fall. That’s life. Hugs.
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It’s not “starting over”, it’s “going on”. The numbers don’t matter. Sobriety is not a destination but a journey. You’re still here with us, so you’re still on the same road, and can keep on going. We’re with you every step.
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Life happens. If it were me I would ask myself: 1) What happened that ai let it get into my hand, 2l) What can I do differently so it doesn’t end up that way. 3) How do “normies” go through this type of stuff with out being like us? 4)
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Alright, so get back up tomorrow. Make it 110 days sober out of 111. That’s still 99% sober and a hell of a lot better than 99% not, right?
It’s important not to make excuses, but I’ve learned that the most important thing is to get back up when I fall and try again. Don’t give into the guilt and temptation to say “fuck it, I failed so I might as well carry on failing”.
One mistake doesn’t define you, it doesn’t define any of us. The willingness to get back up again and carry on does.
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The best thing you can do at this point is to give yourself grace and to not beat yourself over it. It SUUUUUCKS having to restart but the important part is that you don’t spiral and you don’t give up on your journey. Get back on and trudge through. I’ve been there a thousand times. And it’s like, “Well I already done fucked up- may as well just feed into it and keep drinkin.” Like messing up on a diet eating pizza for a weekend and giving up on it completely for a while. Being honest and accountable is very powerful and I’m proud of you. That’s the cool thing about this community- we all share a common denominator and still support each other! We’re a family of strangers but we kinda know each other as well.
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Hope you are okay. Your 109 isn’t lost. Life is full of setbacks and challenges. You can choose to get pulled back down or learn and get back to sobriety and recovery. Don’t let this mess you up. Fight for yourself…you are deserving of a healthy healing life.
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Thank you evryone for your support. I didnt get wasted or even buzzed. I had one single can of beer. That was it … just feel dumb for letting my emotions win. 
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109 days is amazing work friend. You have not lost that time nor the tools and knowledge you gained. Grateful to see you right back here working on your sobriety. Do not let guilt or shame affect you in any way. Stay connected and stay strong. Here for you Julia 
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