I am honestly amazed that I have made it to 40 days with out a drop of alcohol. It is getting easier however I find myself missing and grieving it. And then I feel the guilt for feeling that way.
Also I have a court date coming up on June 6th for an OWI. I am having a lot of anxiety about that. So I keep myself busy and one day at a time.
Congrats on 40 days sober. Funny how we miss something that made us so miserable. ODAAT. 
Congrats on 40 days!
How wonderful is it that you get to walk into the court room with your head held high because you’re sober. You’re no longer that person who was charged with an OWI and the judge will see that.
Congratulations on your 40 days Miranda!!! That is amazing. Idk if you enjoy reading, but one book I found helpful recently was Push Off From Here by Laura McKowen (her 1st book, We Are The Luckiest is also well worth a read). This second one talks about grieving the alcohol and life. And if you really like reading quit lit, I took so much from This Naked Mind by Annie Grace and Quit Like A Woman by Holly Whitaker. Reading helps keep my mind focused + recovery focused. 
Well done!! Keep going!
Forty days, that is fantastic Miranda 
You have to remember that alcohol gave you nothing good. Time softens the edges a bit, makes the memory of the hangovers, the guilt, shame, and hopelessness fade out. Just enough to suck us back into the vortex, so you need to be so careful.
We don’t go back to it, because the alternative is misery and the feeling of being trapped all over again. Starting sobriety again is much, much harder than it is to continue on this road right now.
Well done for making it this far !
With this new sober self, you’re going to be able to deal with it better
Stay strong stay connected
Miranda! Wow! Big old pat on the back for forty days freedom! Do you mind sharing your routine for staying sober? How did you do it?!
I know it is cliche to say one day at a time, but man that is really what it is! Honestly I keep myself busy at home. It has been cleaning and organizing things. Since I am not that far out with being sober, I have taken a break from spending time with my closest friends. They know I love them, but I would always drink with them. So for now I am just avoiding social situations until I am comfortable enough to re-engage. Also every Monday I go to Celebrate Recovery which is meetings that is a 12 step program. It helps being around people that are struggling as well.
The one i go to is also on Mondays
Awesome