Now im crying 
, doing better, spent the day watching movies. Didnt drink but i did eat buttery pop corn. Thank you everyone 
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I’m sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. It’s important to take a moment to breathe and reach out to someone you trust for support, whether it’s a friend, family member, or a sponsor, if you have one. Drinking might seem like an escape, but it can often make things worse in the long run. Remember, it’s okay to seek help, and you’re not alone in this.
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Glad to hear it friend. You earned it.
Now is time for some self care. Seek emotional support and connection from people you trust. For me this is usually people in my sobriety program. Tell them your feelings and ask for empathy. Be gentle with yourself.
You are carrying fear now, the same kind of fear that comes from walking up the edge of a cliff. You know you need to make it to the next safe plateau, but to get there you have to walk up this cliff. You made it! But you are still carrying that edge of tension and fear from the ascent. Find someone who can understand and hug or otherwise care for you in this moment. It will help you find your footing. (Paradoxically it can be after big sober successes that we can sometimes be at risk, as much as before them. The emotions and the novelty and sense of danger are still there.)
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How are you feeling today @Button83? Sometimes I think emotions are a fabric, like a sweater made of wool; there’s different emotions, different threads, and they all make up our emotional self on that day. Each day, we change our sweater; each day is a new emotional experience.
What are the threads in your sweater today?
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My threads are a tired grey today. Last night i dreamed a drinking dream. Thankful that it was just a dream
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Maybe it’s actually silver, @Button83. Silver sobriety, perhaps a bit dull today, but just as valuable as when it’s shining bright.
I hope for a beautiful day for you. You deserve it!
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I understand 
Emotion work is exhausting, for all of us, and the position you’re in, in your house, is frankly not fair. There’s a lot of imposition and boundary-crossing happening. It’s not a reason to drink, obviously, but it’s a good example of how life has potholes and rough spots: places where the path is not as properly maintained as it could be. It’s exhausting to be stuck in a spot, doing work to fix the road, especially when you feel you’re doing it alone.
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You know how people in life sometimes refer to having their plates too full?Now I know that my problems compared to the problems of the world are minuscule, and not worth mentioning(). Thats how it goes sometimes , a bunch of things in life overlapping, some good sone bad some very stressful. And then the point comes where everything becomes overwhelming and the plate starts to overflow. Jumping from the plate to the neck of a vodka bottle wasnt the answer. But jumping from the plate into the threads of this app was 
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Simply beautiful. This whole thread is a truly inspiring read. Thanks for reaching out when you were so vulnerable, and thanks to all who responded. It fills my heart. Love to all.
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We love you tooooo!
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I’m so glad you did overcome that urge to drink away your problems.
Well done Julia. Glad you’re sharing it with us.
You’re a rock star 
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Im glad you reached out and stayed on path. Im also glad you communicated things with others involved. Very proud of you
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