Today is day 2. I messed up. We all have a story though. I cant go to any meeting locally due to everybody knowing my family and nobody knows I relapsed except a friend on here. My legs are killing me, I’m feeling like I’m in a cloud but thankfully no sweats so I’m hoping it’ll only get better from today. Obviously not my first rodeo.
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I’m glad you’re still here, mamaof2! Maybe you learned something that you know triggers you. Today’s a great day because you’re back! Enjoy your day!
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Well, if you’re looking for support and people with whom to talk (or correspond, anyway), you’ve certainly come to the right place.
It’s good that you realise that you have to do something, for your own benefit and that of your children.
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Thank you for sharing! I’ve found myself more comfortable sharing on here too. Lots of relapses for me with all the quarantine. Good to keep moving forward as you can, day by day. We’re here with you.
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Ive had lots of day 1s and thats after a huge relapse 15 years ago. 6 years sober and ive been trying to be a normal drinker for about 8 years… I’m not normal! I committed to 30 days and I’m already thinking of running to the market. Checked in here to check myself. Sending support!
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The issue is my family doesn’t know, and my husband is an officer.
Yesterday was bad, sleep wasnt the best but I did sleep and today my body hurts, feel cloudy but ive done laundry, fed my kids and cleaned the house. I have to act normal. I am a nursing student and i realized I was sick of being sick and tired. I just want to feel normal. Happy. Last time i was omay by day 3. So I’m trying to push. I knew i would get support here
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I like what @Conor689908 said; you’ll know when you’re ready to. And also about going to meetings outside of your district. I worked with deputies a long time ago; there was a few that were sober and it wasn’t a secret. I think it’s a personal decision for sure, but it’s not the end all… it’s you doing what’s best for YOU… You’re important and nobody’s opinion means anything in the big picture~! Ask for help here or just vent; there’s always someone here. 
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Thank you. I would definately tell,my family but i would lose everything, my kids, husband, everything. As i mentioned we all have a story, mine was me getting help 3 years ago, went 2000 miles away to wi for 3 months and it was my last chance to save what I had. I had surgery August 2018, charts show narcotic abuse per my request, they gave me iv medicine but nothing to go home, ended up with an infection, open wound, appts 3x a week, got 1 script cause the pain was bad. Then March 2020 I had a full hysterectomy due to pain amd ando and pain management isnt an option, well they gave me medicine after I made it known I had history. Then about 2 weeks ago I had another minor procedure and got medicine for 2 weeks when I realized enough is enough. This isn’t who I want to be. Its time to go cold turkey and be the best me,for my kids and husband. Let alone. Me.
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Glad your still at least trying after a relapse. I’ve tried to quit drinking over and over and I usually relapse on day 2. So I understand the feeling. I’ve only gotten on this app a day ago and have already recieved so much support! You’ve got this , were all in it together !
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That’s alot to go through; I hope your body heals quickly… and I admire your perseverance. I’m sure you know about zoom meetings too; you can go on anytime, there’s usually one going on somewhere. You can keep your camera and/or mike off too…
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Yeah I just went in last night and I did keep them both off. Just wanted to take it all on and listen for the first time
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There’s also lots to listen to on youtube and podcasts… there’s a thread here somewhere with more information I think. I sometimes go to youtube and just type in sobriety; although I do like to listen to famous people at meetings… I can’t even imagine how hard it was for them to get sober!
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How do I find out about zoom meetings, i need a sponsor or someone to help. As I said to say is day 2 i want to give up, heart racing, knees and lega hurts and a fog, will i feel substantially better,tomorrow? I work tomorrow and have lab class Tuesday. Ive done Motrin and Tylenol, omega 3, calcium, mag zinc mix and vitamin c. Drinking tons of water and eating a little
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I’m here, day one for me… yet again. If you ever want to talk let me know!
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Problem here is it’s kinda giving yourself an open door to do it again.
It’s one thing asking and getting support here when you are hiding things from your RL support network.
You gotta do what you feel is best for yourself however.
Stay strong and remember today.
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If you just go onto google and type in aa meetings wherever you live a schedule should come up saying whether it’s in person or zoom then you just copy the meeting number paste it on zoom and they let you in !!
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Thank you… I’ll have to figure that out, lol
I’m not sure how to transfer those threads…
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Thank you so much