Whisky is not medicine. You don’t need to be a doctor or nurse to know that. It’s stunning what bs we tell ourselves to believe in active addiction. I was no better, I “believed” alk “helped” with social anxiety and low self esteem. It also doesn’t take a psychologist to tell me that I didn’t want sobriety when I held these “believes”.
If you’re serious about sobriety, you’ll need to stop making excuses (husband, cold, …) and find a path that will serve you and your long term goal of a sober life.
I hope you recover quickly from your cold and can use your down time to do some research, some reading and interacting on the forum. There are meetings 24/7 you can attend from your bed without camera even at intherooms.com and you can look for some inspiration and education on your addiction here New Recovery Books and
Resources for our recovery
If nothing changes nothing changes.
Get well soon!