About 6 months or so ago. I had limited myself to once a week. Which was a step in the right direction. Slowly trying to ween myself off alcohol. That lasted for about 4 months. I wasnt drinking enough to sleep all day. About 6-10 shots max. Still wake up at 8am feeling okay on my weekends. Then i decided well 4 shots after work max once a week also. Then that lasted a few weeks. Then it was 5 shots. Then it was 6 or 7 shots. Ive managed to limit myself to 7 shots. So, i dont miss work. I feel bleh but still able to do my job. Now, ive been still sometimes getting black out drunk on my weekends. Drinking between 4-5 days a week usually. Ive not gone more than abouy 5 or 6 days without a drink in a while. Im feeling hopeless again. Hating myself. I always say im going to do better next week. Im currently on day 3 of without a drink. I wanted to drink yesterday but i gave my mom my keys and said i want to drink. Dont give these back till i have to work. Without my parents id probably be in prison. Biggest reason ive not bought my own place. Im not getting a third DUI. I always give my parents my keys even though they are disappointed in me drinking. If i dont give them my keys and i only buy 4 or 5 drinks. Im usually buzzed enough i would probably get more. I have to stop. But i dont want to. Struggling between wanting to be better and just not caring. I have no idea where im headed with this post. Just saw the app and decided to log in.
Welcome back! Listen to the inner voice that brought you here. You also have the addiction voice. Inside your head that tells you to give up and give in. I can relate to your struggle, a lot of folks here can too. We are here for each other and we are here for you. Don’t give up! Build your set of strategies that will help you on your path. Your sober toolbox. Wishing you strength in recovering your true nature. 
Hello and welcome… Oh the same old story as the rest of us, you can’t live with it and you can’t live without it. So you must be in the right place 
. Firstly forget moderation as you can tell that doesn’t work. Do keep using your parents as support, they might not be so proud of you right now but your actions from this point on might change that one day. Do consider AA, many say no and hit about another 20 rock bottoms and get so desperate they end up there anyway and never drink again. Save yourself the heartache bc what you got to lose. Do reach out on here when you think you are going to drink, we can either help you before you drink or just give you half arsed sympathy if you come on here after hungover and guilt ridden… This is so much easier together.
So well done for taking positive action and I wish you well on your journey.
Well only you will know when you are ready to quit - when enough is enough - when you get fed up with the drunken Ferris wheel that just won’t stop but seems to be ramping up (from 4 shots to 7…)
I don’t think any of us have had luck with weening ourselves off of the poison. I would always say just one on Friday and then Saturday then increased the amount and the days and well you know the story. Best way to stop is to stop period. We can not do this alone. Grateful that you do have your parents to help - handing them the keys to keep you from caving is a great choice. I would also pour all the remaining alcohol out so you are not tempted.
I found that changing up my routines and social circles helped when I was starting out. I also kept myself busy with hobbies and activities so that i was not tempted by triggers.
It would be good to gain a supportive environment (join a meeting / find a sponsor / stay active here).
This is a great supportive community with loads of advice and non judgmental support. Read through the threads and join in when you feel comfortable. Hope to see you around.
In my non-profound drunk education the last 6 years I have yet to see someone stop drinking until they no longer wanted to.
When we’re done we are done and not a sip sooner.
Maybe a meeting, maybe another form of working a program that interests you. Fucking something, or this leads to jail or a coffin…with a few stops at the ER in between. This I know from experience and none of us are special.
It is okay and healthy to do things differently. Stick around please and hugs on your 3 days. You know, you don’t have to do day 3 again…ever!
The little bit i have used this app i have enjoyed it. After the last 11 years. I see how ive slowly just went from drinking for fun to drinking to not feel or to make myself feel. I dont have too many friends. I usually spend my time alone. 99 percent of my drinking is alone. My moods are better with people if im going to drink. But, i know i need to stop. I need to get in shape. I hate my drinking habbit and i hate the way i look. But, yet ive stayed on this rollercoaster for years. I have no idea how i ended up in this situation. I have not hit a real rock bottom even though i thought i have when i was arrested for the second time. Im going to try and use this app on the regular. Thank you for the response.
Thank you for the words. I am going to be using this app more from now on. Tomorrow will be sober day 4. Have to work. I will be leaving my wallet at home. My biggest struggle will be soon as i clock out from work. Ill want to make my usual stop and buy my usual 6 shooters. But, i will not be doing that tomorrow. Its much easier when my option to stop at the store is completely removed from me. Thank you for the reply.
Look at my profile, it doesn’t work trying to control it ,i had to close the door completely, i kept letting it back in and once you do it just starts taking over and takes you back to the beginning each time ,in my case getting worse each time ,you can do this and you will srart to feel better but you have to say goodbye ,have you tried meetings they really helme in the beginning of my journey
I dont want to ruin my life before im ready to quit. I know i shouldnt. I have been doing well in the sense of mostly limiting my amount. But, i know i need to stop. I need to get healthier. I need to get in better shape. I need to workout. Which i plan on starting this week. I cant go back to jail. Twice was enough. Very expensive. Waste of money. So, is me buying 6 or 7 shots 4-5 days a week. I added up the money lately i spent on alcohol these few months and it grossed me out. Drinking has put me in the hospital twice. One was a failed suicide attempt which im glad wasnt successful. The other was a crashed car into a tree almost off a cliff drop. Thank you. I am proud of myself for not giving in yesterday and making it my choice to sleep in today cause i stayed up late watching movies. Not because im hung over. Here is for day for tomorrow. Thanks for the reply.
Thank you for the reply. I am absolutely going to try and stay more acrive with this application. I have enjoyed using it in the passed. Even though it was very little. I have only a few friends and none of them are alcoholics. They know my issues. Sadly, i dont get to see them very often.
I have tried AA a few years ago. It didnt really seem to help me. I also went through a court ordered program. Which was an absolute joke. It was just another thing for them to make money off you. The longest period of soberity ive had in the last 11 years was when i got my first DUI and lost my license. I made a doctors appointment and got this drug that makes you physically sick if you drink while on it. Thats all the medicine is for. I used it for about 9 months and i quickly found out you absolutely do not drink while on these meds. You break out in a rash. You get hot and start burning. Your throat starts to swell shut. It can kill you drinking on these meds. I had 10 months of soberity cause of those. But, one day i said i just want to drink again. I waited a month for the meds to be out of my system. That first few drinks it instantly flooded back and i was like ive missed you. It was like 10 months of sobrity never happened. My only option is to never drink again. I can not be a casual drinker. Thank you for the reply.
You aren’t alone. I’m 48 (about to turn 49) and 9 days sober of booze.
I have been abusing drugs and alcohol in varying amounts for decades now. I am feeling the full brunt of cutting off alcohol. Physical symptoms already gone. I am left to wrestle with my brain now. It’s scary to think about the notion I need to drink to make my yuck thoughts go away.
Like you, I was at the point I didn’t care anymore, but I’ve also reached the point where booze is clearly acting against my best interests after many failed attempts. So I’m currently in a hell of sorts b/w the world of continued addiction and the sheer terror and difficulty of sobriety (as we speak). I am trusting things will smooth out.
Tapering off booze and trying to moderate have not worked for me. Please hang in there.
Avoid that stop at all costs, never go to that shop again, change your route home if you have to. You don’t need that crap in your life believe me.
The battle to maintain drinking in moderation and ultimately failing will continue to damage your self esteem and make you depressed and feel you cant commit to anything.
Unfortunately you will likely not be able to commit to drinking in a structured way. I cant im a alcoholic and have far to many hang ups and i push boundaries and spiral.
Once i realised i was giving myself an unrealistic goal it was such a relief.
Giving up alcohol all together will make you realise its nothing to do with who you are or lack of or something why you couldnt just ‘drink like everyone else’. Alcohol is out to get you and make you fail and make life a battle. For the sake of your mental health and other things keep going. Itl be rough but the clarity will come sooner than you think. Well done you.
Thank you for the reply. My goal is to take it one day at a time other wise i get over whelmed. I will be leaving my wallet at home today. Just woke up and im getting ready for work. Cant buy any alcohol if i dont have any money on me.
Having a job is a right pain for an alcoholic bc we use it as an excuse to drink, good day, bad day, worked hard, boss is a dick, colleagues and customers don’t do what I want… Never mind all I’ve gotta do is get to the end of the shift and I can have a drink. It’ll all be OK with a drink.
Such deserving people us alkies 
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Tbh we were going to drink no matter what the day had install for us, we’re pre programmed.
Before you go to work have a mental visual image of what you are actually going to do instead of drink today, don’t just wing it. See it and have a plan. Stick to the plan.
Quick tip I did when in the store where alcohol was, I would phone a sober friend and not stop talking until I got out the shop safe.
You’ll find these sober friends at meetings.
It sounds like you have discovered your reasons for quitting and that is great. Now you take those motivators and add some resolve. If you don’t want to go back to jail leave your wallet at home. Tired of waking up tired and out of shape? Put a sober head on your pillow at night.
When you feel like you are lacking in resolve add in another sober tool to your toolbox. Welcome.
Ill admit ive definitely used the work was crap today. Im going to get a drink on the way home several times. Yesterday was my friday and i managed to drive straight home and didn’t stop. I woke up at 6am and meant to get up and play a video game. Then fell right back to sleep. I always feel better about sleeping later on a day off when its my choice and not because im sleeping off a hangover. I tried to make plans to visit a friend this weekene. But he had other plans. This friend hardly drinks any more for the most part. Hes pretty much the only friend i have. He was an alcoholic and drug addict for a long time. Then he stopped for about 6 years. Sometimes he has a few beers and stops. Id say hes one in a million case of that. But he knows my issues and doesnt offer me any and never has any in the house when i visit. Hes a good friend. Trying to gigure out what im going to do today. So far ive just been playing video games and sipping on coffee.
Anythings better than drinking, have a good day 