Im not addicted to coke as when i have my kids friday to sunday i don’t even drink alcohol but if i haven’t got kids i like a drink and a sniff i still go work no matter what but i feel it helps me open up and make me feel nice im not pround of it ive tried staying clean i lasted a week then one thing happens i can’t cope with i start again
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Well your off to a good start
Now you need to accept that you have an addiction. You like doing it and that’s the addiction.
Personally I have a problem with all drugs and alcohol. I can’t do 1 of anything.
Coke is very dangerous, everything about it is dangerous. 1 more time might be your last and I mean your last breath. Being an addict you actually never know when your last snort or puff might be.
I bet you can name a million excuses to use. Not 1 excuse is good to use
You need 1 excuse to stop. That’s all it takes for a start
Read here and post often.
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I’d ask you this: if you try to stay clean for a weekend and depsite yourself you end up consuming after all and then you feel shitty about it, does this not constitute a problem w coke?
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I dont do anythink on weekend as i have my kids so thats why i dont think i got a problem but as soon as i havnt got my kids im back onit to fill the void im alone and i dont see kids everyday
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I know i have a problem but i dotn need it i can go weekned without it when i have my kids but as soon as i dont have them i jump straight back onit to fill the void im alone
It sounds like you’re self medicating. If you feel like you can’t function normally in daily life without it you’re probably addicted.
I’d be wary of coke, especially these days. Fentanyl is blowing up and you never know what your supplier may get. I know someone who almost died twice from laced stuff she got from someone she trusted.
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Does this describe you on the weekends when you do have your kids and you do not drink or take cocaine?
They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks–drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again.
The Doctor’s Opinion, Alcoholics Anonymous, pages xxvii-xxix
The problem, for me, of being able by force of will to stay dry for periods of time is that I always knew the time would come when I would drink again. This made me very unhappy. And it was explained to me like this when I was getting sober: Let’s say you could drink, with no consequences, as much as you like and whatever you like one day a year, and you could still claim you were sober. Would you obsess about that one day, counting down the days until it came? Remembering how it was last year and planning to do it “better” this time?
When I answered affirmatively, I had to accept that the only solution for me was complete abstinence and that my problem was to find a way to be content, even serene, in that abstinence. There is more than one way to achieve this state of contentment, but all paths begin with the decision to commit to sobriety, and the depth of character (even if it is only a shred of faith) to act on that decision for one day. The decision is taken again the next day and the next and so on.
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey. You can start from here, and you need never feel compelled to drink again.
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Your right but what scares me is im not scared od dieing at all my chidren are the only thing keeping me here one day im scared there not enough i dont talk to anyone ive come here for help and i appreciate what people are saying thats how i know i need help as i dont tell anyone
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I dont think drinking is the problem but as ive got so much going on drinking and coke helps me talk to people so i dont do something worse so i use it as an excuse as tbh its helped me though some dark times as its made me speak to people so now i see it as ive havjng a hard time i need to talk so i dont so somthing worse but im scared of what will happen if i dont talk i know its an excuse but i dont know how to stop and still talk without it
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So what’s going on? What do you want to talk about that won’t come out?
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If you want to be sober you need to stop doing all of it.
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Im a dad thats used to seeing my kids all the time my and baby mom split up and i see kids every weekemd wich i had to take her mediation tonsee my kids but as a dad people think we have it easy noone knows how it is for us not to see our kids all the time so i use stuff im not prounf of in the week to help me fill a void
I get what your saying but easier said then done thats why ive xlcome on here for help and i never ask for help
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I had the same experience when I was divorced and had limited visitation with my kid. Not having her around removed the brakes from my behavior. And pretty quickly, because I drank so much in so many situations that I trained my mind and body to adapt to drunkenness, I started drinking even when she was around.
You might not want to hear this, but you are playing with fire. It is possible to be divorced, to not have custody of your children and to stay sober and happy.
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When both drugs and alcohol are at play the best help I can give is to say do not quit one substance only to fill that void with a different one. There are people who parade around as ‘alcohol free’ and are still in fact huge potheads or popping pills etc. That is not sobriety and I don’t want that type of situation for you…
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Ive come here as people have been thought the same if not worse and come out other side so i respect what you and i appreciate the advice im give i hope well need to stop so i can work on myself and become better for my kids its just hard
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I get what you mean i try stopping then start somting else but its not me being clean its swapping one thing for anouther i want to be clean and don better but 1 think happens and i fall off the waggon i was clean for 7bdays then summit happend and i fell off im not pround of it but xouldnt help it
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Start checking in here substance free on a daily basis and reach out for support as needed. You have come this far so chin up and carry on…
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Having a plan for getting sober, and idea of how other people have done it is very helpful. Here are two threads full of such information for you.
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I mixed drinking with coke for a long time. I didn’t realize how bad my drinking was until I totally stopped the coke. That was an eye opener for sure. The coke of today could be cut with fentanyl at any time and that shit is scary.
I could go a couple weeks without drinking and months without coke, but once I got my hands on some and there was a supply, I kept going til I was ragged. It wasn’t until I truly tried to stop (for longer than a few weeks) that I understood just how big a hold the drink had on me…same for the coke. If you are doing it that often, believe me, it has its hooks in ya.
It is good you came here. I hope you will keep coming back and checking in. I know you want to be there for your kids, so I hope you can stop for them and for you. When we are able to face the loneliness, the void, the hard parts of life without escape by numbing, life really can change. Stay strong and stick around. You are worth it. 
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