this last relapse will be my last relapse. i am done. i am getting clean. i work 2 jobs so it is really difficult for me to go through the withdrawals, but i have a plan. i called out of work tonight, and have the day off tomorrow.my boss is upset with me for calling out, but i need to put myself first. by my shifts on monday i will be able to use subs to make it at least somewhat bearable. i plan on only using subs for the first few days, because i do not want to become dependent on them. the hardest part will be making it to the 24 hour mark with nothing to ease the pain. i know i wont be getting any sleep for the next few days as ive been through this before. i am just gonna keep trying to remind myself that the pain is worth it, and if i stick to it, this will be the last time i have to experience it. one second at a time. i am going to need extra support for the next few days
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You can do this!
Sending you strength K, you seem determined. Hang in there, a better life is waiting for you!