Thank you for sharing your feelings! I am also a mom. But, I am also an individual who is not perfect nor super human. It seems moms are often sterotyped as a perfect person who makes no mistakes. Its difficult trying to hold that standard. Its just not possible. Stress is linked to addiction as well. Sometimes, you just need that “escape”. For me, that is what happened. Then it became apart of my routine. I am thankful for the strength i had to get sober. Not just for my daughter, but for me and my future! It is possible… will it be easy? “Nothing worth doing comes easy”. I take it one day at a time and remind myself how far i have come. Do what you have to do, to get to the next journey in your life. Forgive yourself!
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I am also an alcoholic. I lost custody of my son two weeks ago for “neglecting him while being intoxicated” I do feel alone in this and it makes me feel more hopeful that there are other people going through this. I am grateful for this app. My court date is tomorrow and I’m hoping to get him back. I started outpatient treatment last week and have been doing drug tests.
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Oof. I am sorry to hear you are going through all of that. I am a mom of 4 and I have a lot of guilt over things I missed about them growing up or I simply don’t remember because I was drunk or hung over a lot. I know it’s hard to accept but all that is in the past and you can and WILL change your future!
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I’m stopping for my 3 kids all they have ever had is me and I don’t want them to end up like me but it’s so hard being a single mom going through this and taking care of stressful responsibilities but I have too
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You are not alone. Keep fighting this battle your a force to be recond with( hope i said that right(. You got this love. Your not alone we all have a story. Keep pushin towards sobriety. No one judges here. You got this, stay strong you have a new beginning coming!!!
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Hi Lulu, no need to apologize! My 10 year old is the same way… Him and my oldest son are my biggest supporters honestly, my 3 sons are the only immediate family I have, so their opinion is definitely the most important.
I’ve been visiting daily, it is SUCH a blessing!!
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Thank you! Yeah he is coming today with the new caseworker so I’m kind of 
He wants to meet with us for 30 minutes, then have my son’s grandma come over with my son. I’m just speaking positivity into existence, and reminding myself this isn’t forever.
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Hey Stephanie, I’m right there with you. You’re definitely not alone. How did court go??
Hi Cat! For sure, I feel the same with my two older sons. Even though they’ve forgiven me, it’s still stinks quite a bit that I ever was that way around them. But that’s my plan, break the cycle and make a better future!!
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Hi Ssilver, I understand, I’ve always been a single mom, just boyfriends, never married. They all 3 have different dads and my oldest has never had his dad around, it’s hard, but like you said, our kids deserve so much more, and for us to be sober. We also owe it to ourselves so that we can feel good about ourselves 
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Hey Ardie! Thank you!! That made my day!!
I got a job offer yesterday and I really hope they accept my background check, I made some very distasteful choices when I was drinking.
But… I’m manifesting good from now on, no more negative self-talk…I hope lol
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Thank you so much for your comment. I need that kind of positivity. You’re right, it’s definitely not easy. We just have to press on. I’m really happy for you that you’re doing it for you and your daughter, I feel a little better every day that I can tell my kids I love them. Sober.
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Thanks Matt!!
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Tell yourself wveryday you are worthy. The drinking cant win againat ypu!!!
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YES!!! I couldn’t agree more and need to do that more!!
How was the meeting tonight with the worker? I hope it went well! I am also a mother with an addiction. I have a number of nights I don’t remember and a number of conversations that I do not remember. My boys are 19 and 21 now and I am trying to show them I can be better. It took my 19 year old son finding me at the bottom of the stairs bleeding for me to realize how badly I needed to fix me! 11 staples and 8 days later I am doing well. Keep up the hard work, your sons will thank you!
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My 4 have different dads. I am married to the 4th and was married to the 3rd, he’s now in prison in a different state and hasn’t seen his daughter in a few years nor is there any contact. The oldest 2 also do not have a relationship with their biological dads, one was gone before birth and the other about 5 years ago. I know it’s on these “men” for not being there for their kids but I can’t help but feel like if I hadn’t abused alcohol and slept around we wouldn’t be in this situation.
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Hi! Alcoholic mom here. While I can’t relate to your exact situation because I haven’t suffered any legal involvement yet, I understand the guilt, shame and insanity!
I had a hard time understanding how my love for my daughter wasn’t enough to stop. She is the most important thing in the world. Shouldn’t that be enough? Logically, sure. But in the frame of addition…it just doesn’t matter. Nothing matters but the disease trying to convince me I need a mind or mood altering substance just to function within the world.
I’m coming up on a few months sober and all I can do is not pick up today and focus on loving and taking care of my girl the best I can. That’s all you can do too. Well all of that within a foundation of a basic platform of recovery, whatever that looks like for you. Wishing you all the best.
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Oh my gosh, I’m really glad you’re still here with us! I’ve often wondered how I’m still alive 
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The meeting went well I think, the GAL said that with Wayde’s age (he’s 2 1/2), they have to close the case within a year. He said, “The goal is return home to parents but if either one of you goes sideways it will be return to PARENT” I was really honest with him, the new caseworker is really nice, but she’s young and she’s new at this. He said we will start with 3 visits per week at 2 hours each at our home. Then we will go to more or where they can be unsupervised, then we’ll talk about overnights. I feel like he’s going to take that whole year to close it out 
I totally completely feel you. I have often thought the same thing. But I mean, we wouldn’t trade our babies for anything, but I still have so many regrets. I’m 39 in a couple weeks and can’t tell you how many times I’ve been embarrassed because I don’t remember certain people I “met” when drinking.