So im here and im ready to do anything that it takes to remain sober ,i had 3 1/2 months then i buggered it up by drinking and i never fully closed that door ,i ve been reading on here in the background but not really participating (as in my mind everyone would think oh there goes maggie shes a loser cant stick with it )i was going to post when i got alot of sobriety in but unfortunately that never happened, ive made a complete mess of this ,i see the same people on here who have the sobriety i want ,but i know im going to have to put in the work ,that fell by the wayside ,i stopped adding entries into my diary wasnt commenting or saying how i was feeling as i didnt want anyone to see how pathetic i feel ,pathetic because i had it for a while snd then i let it go ,i want to get back on here get more involved and get my sobriety back ,ive done it before and it was the best feeling but i let it go ,i just want to do it right this time
Hey there! I am glad you changed your mind and posted. I’ve gone through the same thoughts. I am currently back on Day 5 and I have been on this site since 2018. It’s not over until you stop trying.
I welcome you no matter where you are in your journey, as I do with anyone wanting help. I am so glad you’re here and I look forward to getting to know you on the forum.
I’m so glad to see you again. You can do this Maggie. One fucking day at a time, always the next right thing.
Day one. Here we go. Write it out, every day, what are the things you need to do that will keep you sober? Then do them. Then check them off. Every day.
I bet you, ppl here are mostly not thinking that. You are one of this group and you are welcome here. Do what it takes Maggie.
Thankyou that means alot ,i know its stupid thinking people on here would judge me for failing but thats were my mind took me as ive been on this app for round about 3 plus years now ,but im really going to get this ,for me ,sobriety first before everything
Thanks ,i would cry if i weren’t so emotionally void ,i dont want to give in to this fucker, im gonna ,post read journal get this back on track
I’m happy to see you again. I used to want to say I had 5 years sober when I had a week or a month. It’s probably a way for me to fantasize about success when I’m steeped in “failure”.
I think you’re a perfectly lovely human and you deserve the good sober life that is coming to you.
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey!
Maggie… .ive been here since day 1 and pretty much every day since…i wouldnt be sober if i hadnt been! I dont want to see u call yourself pathetic ever again because u are far from it! Its strong to ask for help not weak, as always im here for u and sending lots of love and hugs xxx
So glad you are back!! I sure am not going to judge anyone and their journey…it took me years to get my quit to stick…years. And I know it takes a toll. All that crap rattling around in your brain and making you feel bad about yourself…like we need to feel worse?? Truthfully, today is the only day we have and today we are sober. We can worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. And I promise you, it feels impossible, but it is not. You are stronger than you think and you are 100% deserving of a healthy and healing life. 
I’ve been exactly where you are many times. I left here completely, for a long while, bc I felt as though I’d let everyone down. Really it was myself who was let down and sick of pressing the reset over and over. I had almost lost all hope, but then one day it finally stuck again.
I’ve seen your posts/likes here and there. Getting more involved is a wonderful idea. I started using the daily check in thread recently to keep me focused on why I’m here.
Everyone’s recovery looks different. Doing the work will help you get there. Hope to see you soon 
Hi kelly ,i read your story this morning very inspiring, you’ve done it you and many others on here have what i want ,i was doing so well too,couldn’t quite believe i had managed it ,but i let it go ,for that i feel shit like i cant do anything right ,but im dusting myself down to prove to myself i can achieve sobriety, im sick of being sick on a never-ending as you put it hamster wheel ,i want off
You can do it Maggie youve proven it time and time again! Is there an element of self sabotage somewhere in here? Maybe ur feeling like u dont deserve off the wheel? That voice is a liar Maggie, you do deserve a good, sober life xxx
Welcome Maggie we are all here the encouragement here is fantastic, the dark places I’ve been many times, but staying on here hhas really helped massively, try a meeting maybe, I have and I was taken back, just listening to other people and their journey, and love is fantastic, I’m going to my second one tonight, and definitely definitely stay on here love and strength sent to you girl
3 and a half months is absolutely incredible Maggie!! And if you did it then, you can do it now!! And this time around you’ll be more informed because you have done it before, so will be more aware of the pitfalls to it all. I’ve not drank for 10 days, so I find 3 and a half months totally inspirational!!
Yes yes fantastic post
Hi maybe try a meeting might help you on your journey wish you well
Thanks jimmy and welcome, if i can do 3 months odd you will be able to aswell ,first few weeks were the hardest for me then i was on a roll ,but i didn’t use my tools ,getting over the first few weeks for me was the hardest ,pissed of at myself that im back here again snakes n ladder ,all the anxiety and emotional shit that comes with it ,it is as simple as not lifting that first drink i know that ,i cant control it ,good luck on your journey you can get there
@Macy2020 you hang in there. As everyone associated with Talking Sober is incredible. As for the feeling of letting anyone down demonstrates how powerful support from others who have the same illness can actually be.
My fellow alcoholics I am educating myself in AA reading everything I can. The entire philosophy is based on people sharing their stories. The success rate to stay sober increases if you surround yourself with sober drunks.
Relapse happens. Learn and discover triggers and start again.
To think I am 46 days sober today.
Your post hit me to the bone. I identify with your feelings of failure. But you are here now on this site. God bless you. Your honest is courageous. Hang in there. ODAAT.
Thanks very much! I was a little reluctant to even upload a pic of myself or say hello in any way. So it’s very nice of you to be so encouraging. Thanks!! X
Thanks very much!!! You’ll be so much better this time around because you’ve learned more from last time? That’s what life is about I guess, learning from mistakes.