On December 4th my sweet baby dog gained his wings. The vet said it was sudden heart failure. His precious soul left in my arms. I dont know how to live life without him. He has gotten me through so much in my life. I may had rescued him but he rescued me back in unmeasurable ways and situations. He even went with me to rehab for 27 days. He got me through more relapses than i can count. He fought so hard to stay with me but his little body couldnt hold on. I told him that we had to go together because I cant live without him and he tried so hard to keep that promise. I cant get the vision of his lifeless body out of my mind. I just held him wearing his little Christmas sweater and wrapped in his blankie for an hour sobbing, my tears falling onto his soft fur praying to God to wake him up and bring him back to me. I had him cremated so i could bring him back home and i have a pendant that carries a tiny bit of his ashes in it so he will be with me everyday, and last year i had his actual pawprint tattooed on my arm. I had no idea when i got it how much that it would soothe my pain. Please my friends i need your prayers and support to help me get through this pain. The old Heather would have been drunk everyday since he left this world but i have remained sober.
Never in my life have i gone through a trauma like this sober and its the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with without alcohol. Fly high my sweet baby boy. Mama will miss you every minute of everyday until we meet again at the rainbow bridge amongst the clouds of heaven.
I am so very sorry for your loss. Grateful that youbare working through your grief is a healthy way rather than trying to drink it away (we know that doesn’t work).
Sending hugs and love your way. We are here for you and your other fur babies need you too 
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Your sweet boys love and memories will forever be a part of you. Grateful that he was able to help you through some hard times 
Sorry for your loss Heather. Dogs are awesome! They become a huge part of us. I know the loss. I had the best Black lab ever! Her name is River. She has been gone for quite a while and I miss her still. I wish their life span was the same as ours.
He is proud of you! Honor him by staying sober! I’m glad your here talking about it and reaching out!
So sorry for your loss. It’s devastating. I grew up with dogs and they were my best friends when I was bullied in elementary school. I opened my heart to them, cried to them and they always understood and soothed me. I’m forever grateful to them and I’m carrying them in my heart everyday. I’m really glad you’re sober in the midst of your sorrow. I wish you all the best, sending hugs.
I am so sorry for the loss of your absolutely beautiful furbaby. He is still watching over you, he is still a part of you and always will be. Maybe start a little doggy diary, write to him everyday in it. Tell him how you feel and give him heavenly hugs through words. Tell him how sober you are and will continue to be just like he supported you through all those times. Grief takes time, be kind to yourself, one day at a time just like sobriety. Sending you all the love, hugs and strength. Love from another furbaby mama.
Done. I just said a prayer for you. 
I’m so sorry for your loss. I can hear how much your heart is broken, though I can’t imagine it. The depth of the pain and loss - the chasm of grief - is so deep.
I’m glad you are able to carry him with you. He was there through your transformation and he is proud of you for staying sober and clear in your grief.
My God, i am so incredibly sorry for your loss. And so incredibly proud of you as well. My sweet schnauzer was killed in front of me on December 17, 2019, and reading your post was like reading from my own journal years ago. She was with me through everything and was my reason for living for over 10 years.
I am so amazed and proud that you are going through this sober. It’s incredibly hard, even without addiction and sobriety playing a part. Have you looked into grief counselors at all? I was in grief counseling for about 2 years after my Pita passed, and it helped immensely.
I am sending you nothing but love and strength during this horrible time. You are not alone. You are loved.
I’m so sorry for you loss… sending you strength in these hard times. 
And yes, good for you for staying sober, drinking won’t bring your baby back.