Today is technically the first day without marijuana in 5 years. I started when I was 14. Got on other drugs like meth and pills when I was 19 but quit that. I have used weed as my crutch for so long I feel dependent on it. I’m living with people and sometimes I have to bite my tongue. I’m supposed to be coming home to my other family in seven months, they want me to work on saving money during this time but I feel so angry, so stressed, my body feels clammy.I dont have anyone really that I trust to talk too. I honestly feel so crazy. I cried myself to sleep last night and watched people smoke infront of me but I still kept strong. I dont feel strong though. I feel like giving up or just dying but I know I cant. Please, if someone is reading this please reach out.
It’s hard enough dealing with how you are feeling without trying to overthink things that haven’t happened yet.
As has been said, stay focused on the now.
Concentrate on getting through each moment by distracting yourself.
Welcome, this place is a great distraction.
Sometimes don’t even think of one day at a time, could be an hour at a time, ten minutes at a time.
You’ve made a great start by acknowledging it and people here will be more than supportive!
Thank you. It helps talking to others
What can I do for these awful cravings. I want to smoke my last little roach but I also know it’s part of the addiction
Can you go out and do something?
I dont feel up to it and I know that sounds awful.
That’s ok; maybe take a long shower. I’ve just deep cleaned my whole place!
Keep your mind busy by keeping busy of sorts. Nap if rest feels good. Like Petes40 said. . .break down the day into smaller chunks. Give yourself credit and praise for how far you have already come. One baby step at a time.
You are strong…
I know them urges are strong and you feel like breaking but you can get the ough the day…
And I can promise you it does get easier I’m on day 37 and I smoked from morning to evening for over 10 years…
Go take a walk out the house if your short tempered…
This has been super helpful. I feel like I want to eat everything though😆 my cravings have went down but still there. Talking to people who have an issue with marijuana makes me feel like I’m not alone. It’s hard
Make a gratitude list, online meetings, treat yourself to a good snack. 
I know it’s hard but trying to stay busy or keep your mind busy with something else will help. We are all in the same boat with you 
You are not alone…
Reach out and talk… There is always someone on here to talk with…
Remember you are worth the change.
Cut yourself slack on eating. It’s very normal to have cravings for food. And it’s fine - seriously.
The rule for early sobriety is:
You can do anything that’s safe and legal, to maintain your sobriety.
There are no limits other than that. There’s a million things we worry about doing or being - but for now, the only thing that matters is focusing on being sober.
There are Marijuana Online meetings, and they have online options too:
https://marijuana-anonymous.org/find-a-meeting/
Attend as many as you want. Attend several in a day if you want. It’s ok and as long as it keeps you connected and grounded, you’re good. If you run out of MA meetings to attend, join one at
It’s a general recovery community with lots and lots of meetings happening - you can find a meeting to join. No one’s going to kick you out.
Welcome to Talking Sober! Looking forward to seeing you around 
That must be super difficult to watch others smoke. I would try your best to avoid those situations in the future. Some are avoidable but hang in there
I read this whole thread so far and I reach out to you with a hug… We have been deprived of hugs for too long by this wretched corona-confusion, for some of us, our oxytocin levels are 30 below zero and that. ain’t. good. for. anyone.
I’ve started hugging myself recently as often as I remember through the day - and smiling to release the positive and fight the negative!
Hang in there, we love you 
@Pelicanitu just posted he’s weed free for one year today! Maybe reach out to him for some support!
Thank you so much. I definitely needed a virtual hug!
I truly love each and everyone that has reached out. I broke down and cried today over an incident with someone that happened a week ago and it’s now haunting me so I’m gonna have to seek mental help as well but the good news today is, I didn’t give in! While I had tears rolling down my face, I went to my lockbox I kept my weed roaches in and picked one up, looked at it, and put it back down and said no. My insomnia is kicking my butt right now but I just read through all of these and what great people you are! I want to get on here everyday and work at this. I’m uncomfortable I dont feel at home, but I’m coming home to my other family in 7 months and I’d like to have self control and show them I can beat my addiction 
Welcome to this awesome forum. Here’s another member quitting weed today too: