Trying harder is a good idea. Telling your therapist is a good idea. Opening up and facing up to your pains and shames is a very good idea. This is how it’s done. This kinda work over a long time is what gets and keeps ppl sober.
Adding to that I would suggest recovery content and immersion in the community here as much as you can.
My fav podcasts early on was the Recovery Elevator.
Good luck!