So random update cont. Someone (Iām assuming the abusive A$$) called CPS on meā¦ And now Iām dealing with that also had to do an interview with Victims of violent crimes department and go over the assault in detail. (it wasnt an easy conversation to have) but they are supposed to be covering my medical bills now. I swear im ready for all of this to just be over. Iām barely functioning at work. And itās all just so overwhelmingā¦ It is making sobriety so much harder. Iām staying soberā¦ And Iām not on the verge of relapse or anything. Itās just all so much sometimes.
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Perspectiveā¦maybe sobriety is making everything you are going through just a bit more manageable. Imagine going through all this drunk or high
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This sounds very difficult, so wanted to message just to show some love. Keep trudging forward, and youāll get through.
It will all be even more difficult to deal with with a hangover/comedown.
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Oh no i definitely agree. I mostly mean the mood swings depression/anxiety and all is amplified with ptsd and extra stressors.
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Thanks @littlemisschatterbox Iām trying. But sometimes I just need to vent and be reminded. I mean I havenāt flaked on work or anything im still on top. But when I feel an episode coming on I geg ahead of it.
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I agree. I wouldnāt be able to do this at all without being sober.
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sigh
Donāt really have words so Iām sending you friendly hugs 
two dozen, at least 
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@Olivia 
ill take em
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Oh and feel free to message meā¦ I cant message you since you are private.
How are you today Kayla? I was so sorry to read this. That sucks. And for your daughters too: itās such a bummer for them to see that kind of immaturity on display.
Thatās gonna make the cookies and manicures a nice distraction I hope 
And - seriously - if Iām walking in on a parent like you who spends quality time with her kids, Iām impressed. Youāre a good mom Kayla. You deal with a lot of bullshit but you handle it with humour and determination. And thatās a good model for your girls.
Take care and remember: youāre a good person, a good mom, who deserves a safe, sober life where you can be your full self.
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@Matt Im feeling a lot better today! Thank you for your words. It definitely got in my feelings. I know im doing the best i can but it still never feels like enough. So itās definitely nice to hear (readš) someone else say it!
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Sounds like a great opportunity to change your internal dialogue. When overwhelmed just keep saying āI am doing the best I can! I am doing enough. I am enoughā.
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@Matt great idea! Ive been really working on negative self talk. So i take all the tips and tricks.
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Better days will come, keep your head up, you got this 
Thank you. 
You probably meant @Mbwoman, but Iāll happily be in good company with her. Thanks!
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Awwwwā¦shucks. 
