I'm using this this to beat Porn

My life has been going downhill ever since i got fired unjustly from my job in August. And since i am single, the only thing i had in my life was porn, masturbation, and video games. I have never even tasted alcohol, and i don’t smoke or do any drugs, so I’m thankful for that. Porn, however, was my vice.

In a way, i wasnt even watching it for the pleasure, it was kind of like those naked people were my friends, and i would actually miss them, if i was gone for too long. Id tried many times to stop porn, only to end in failure. But in at the beginning of December, my car got repossed, and it caused a great deal of anguish.

For some crazy reason, i decided to punish myself for having my car repossessed, by immediately going to my computer and deleting my 30gb porn folder that id built over 10 years. At that moment that my car was taken, i felt like such a loser, and porn would have only confirmed that. The anguish was so strong, that I’ve stayed away from porn for over a month, and with that, i also have not masturbated.

It’s 1 month and 7 days, and now i feel like, it was worth it to have my car repossessed, if indeed it caused me to finally overcome this thing I’ve been battling for 10years.I plan to never return to porn or masturbation, ever. Sometimes the horniness makes me insane, but if i ever give up, it’s like the past 4 months have been suffering for nothing. At least now, the suffering has meant something.

Unless i meet someone who i want to spend my life with, i suppose I’m a monk forever.

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@Indalecio welcome to TS!
There are many of us on here who battle porn/ masturbation addiction, please read the posts as there’s a lot of good information and resources in then. I would suggest finding a support group in your area dedicated to porn/masturbation/ sex addiction such as SLAA, SAA, SA or others, if there are no in person meetings then they all have online at just about any time.
You can recover and go on to live a happy healthy life, I’m personally 5 1/2 years sober from a 30 year active addiction.

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Congratulations on taking the first steps towards giving up pornography. I would advise you to check this site out if you haven’t already and read up as much as you can to ensure you never look back:

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Thanks to all of you for the responses

It’s not easy. Porn is bad. A lot of people think it’s funny when others say I have porn addiction. Many don’t understand. I’m ashamed of myself not just because I’m Christian but because I shouldn’t be turned on by watching others have s3x.