I guess I just want to keep ending up in the walk-in clinics this month. Possibly broke the first joint of my left pinky. It’s pretty swollen and painful, so, naturally, I’m struggling to not go out and buy a vape THC pen. It’s my go-to when I’m in pain, especially migraine.
I haven’t given in, but it’s getting tough. Crazy how my brain went from “no more of this” to “you know you want to” as soon as I got cleared of any lung problems and am now dealing with a painful injury.
Tomorrow will be a struggle— this just happened at the gym tonight. Hopefully it’s not broken.
You’re here. You don’t want to give in. It’s just the addicted part of you, the addicted part of your brain, seeing its chance. Make it through this one and the next crave will be just that little bit easier to withstand. They all count J. One day, one hour, one crave at a time. I’m glad you’re here. We’re in this together. Sorry for your pinky. Take good care of it -which doesn’t include vaping. Hugs.
Hope you made it through the night without too much pain. As @Mno says, we have to retrain (or rewire) our addict brains. Your addict brain is trying to tell you that you can use because the physical damage you feared hasn’t happened, yet. But our addict brains only want one thing, and they lie to us in order to get it. Stay strong. You can handle this.
You are allowed to do just about anything you need as long as it isn’t giving into your drug of choice. Have a slice of cake, take a nap when you can, just don’t murder anyone and don’t give in. You are doing great. Headed to work over here but keep talking it out if you need. Someone is always on.
Don’t beat yourself up over it as that just makes things worse. And FWIW I did the same thing a couple weeks ago. It definitely wasn’t worth it but in a sense, for me at least, there was a sort of silver lining in that it really hammered home that “it’s not worth it”. When you’re getting high all the damned time, you know “it’s not worth it” but you don’t really have time to reflect on it. After a relapse, it seems to hit home harder. Just my experience.
Hey! I’m doing much better now thank you . Been staying busy and really dialing it in at the gym. Feels good to be back on the mats wrestling again . I haven’t had a craving since and I’m already breathing better!
I’m doing much better now thank you 
. Been staying busy and really dialing it in at the gym. Feels good to be back on the mats wrestling again