Kia ora (Hello)
I recently had a discussion regarding traditional practices and cultural beliefs that for some, have created conflict within themselves when trying to reconnect with their origins and other conflicts.
Here in Aotearoa (New Zealand) us indigenous people of the land, through Colonization have become disassociated from our origins and also has caused identity concerns as we have had our language stripped through this process. Our grandparents were punished in schools for speaking our language so in today’s generation, some of us can not even speak a sentence and some… dont even want to be Maori.
This I believe has had a major influence on my choices in life and further complimenting my decision to use substances. How? I have never felt accepted in my own culture (couldn’t understand our language) and never fot in a western culture (cause I was brown and fit a particular stereotypes) I was outcasted and consequences at schools for my behaviours… but teachers never knew the abuse and dysfunction I was experiencing at home or internally. Punished for this I felt that I only belong with others like me. The difficult ones as such. Yet I felt more apart of something then in my own family being around other trouble teens.
The dysfunction i refer to is intergenerational. Violence, substance abuse etc. Both parents never spoke Maori and they were beaten as children My grandparents were violent and they also were excessive alcoholics and were conditioned to a western worldview.
Alcohol was introduced to our people when British sailors would barter for things. But they often bartered with our warriors who weren’t the sharpest cookies, and not with the chiefs. Hence some of the conflicts around land, but nevertheless. . Colonization is a process and the British are great at it. You know I remember watch 300 the spartan movie. To create a great warrior to treat him like shit. Emotionless, and full of pain. Give him alcohol for the first time and I could only imagine the relief. I believe my people are in some ways still creating warriors and alcohol or drugs is our relief.
No malice or hate directed to the British. They achieve a goal and we as people we become divided and land taken long story short. This is a short history lesson but something I knew nothing of when in my addiction.
Our people are fighting to regain the acknowledgment we feel is overdue and not revenge. But the trauma of this I share has a big part to play in our ongoing dysfunction today amongst or communities.
We over populate the jails, health sector and mental health service. Highest rate in suicide in the world per capita. Addiction is normalized and abuse is minimised. I entered recovery 2011 and have found d myself and my connection to my origins. This has helped me immensely regaining my identity and learning of my traumas and intergenerational traumas.
This is in no way a hate speech. I feel.maybe others may have complexities around their addiction such as mine.
This is open to any indigenous people who want to share your thoughts about anything or for others who would like to understand.
Mauri ora e te whanau katoa