So today I did my intake, it’s just the waiting process. I’m gonna try my hardest to remain clean and sober as I wait. My anxiety is spiking at the moment and my mind is racing. My heart is racing. Having to answer those questions this time truthfully and not half truth took a lot out of me. I guess it was best. I still don’t want to be put on medication to function. I don’t know. I’m everywhere right now. Only 2 days clean and I feel jitter ish and frantic. I don’t feel the urge to use but I know if I saw it or had it I would. 
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Congrats. Your made a huge decision for the better.
I hope you can stay away from temptation tonight. Its pretty common to have feelings of one last time before you commit.
I did that and it was almost fatal for me. It didnt not help my recovery at all.
And its two of the hardest days you will have to repeat detoxing.
Stay strong 
2 days is awesome!
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Thank you so much. I’m trying my hardest. Glad I came looking for a response or a group that’s talking or something because temptation came in the form of a call and a knock. The alcohol I turned down, it’s the cigarette I’m struggling with. Thank God it wasn’t drugs. I would’ve probably fainted. lol. All in all I’m hanging on.
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Welcome.
I totally get the cigarette deal. I’ve been sober for over 2 years and I still want a cigarette now and again.
Hang in there. You’re not alone.
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Oh my goodness. That would drive me insane. 2 years of sobriety and still being haunted by nicotine is a bit much. I pray that fades forever from your life and mind. Thank you for responding. I think I need to just get rid of the cigarette before I smoke it. 
It took a lot of corrage to be totally honest at the intake. I hope you don´t have to wait too long.
Arenthere things you can do if you get too anxious? Keeping your mind busy, distracting yourself, do some sport, go into nature,… What are things you like to do that require your focus?
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Well I’ve basically been anxious all day. I’ve been sleeping on and off all day as well. I need to be at work tomorrow if I can’t get to sleep I won’t be there, mentally/physically I’m not up for it. There are sports that I like but no one to play and nowhere to utilize, at least I don’t know. I love being out in nature and walking in it as well.
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Wishing you a good night rest 
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It’s just a little craving. Smoking and drinking are in my past. I don’t let it bug me.
How are you hanging in today?
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Well I’m feeling anxious and uneasy. I’ve been in bed all day for the past 2 days. I’m terrified to move actually. I don’t know why. I know my last counselor told me when I get to feeling like this to just be still and hold on as if my life depends on it cause it does and it’ll pass. Every time I failed to heed that warning I ended up high, drinking, partying, and smoking cigarettes. I’m tired of this for my life. Tired of the rollercoaster and tired of the endless cycle. All in all I’m okay, I guess. Thank you for asking.
I’m sorry you’re going through such a difficult time right now. When I first got sober, I started journaling as a way to cope. I learned to fold the corners of the pages where I wrote about positive days; that way, when the anxiety hits and things feel hopeless, I can flip back and read about those brighter moments. It really helps to put things back into perspective and reminds me that this feeling will pass. Hang in there.
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That is a good idea. I don’t have a journal so I’ll have to find another way. Lol. I’m better right now. It’s mainly afternoon and evening when I’m affected.