Hi everyone. Just introducing myself. My last drink was 8/3/24 and last time doing THC was 10/19/24. Been off everything as my first truly sober day being 10/20/24. I realized even though I wasn’t doing heavy doses of THC it started to just be a replacement for alcohol. I had about 4 months of dry time in 2023, started doing edibles for a few months and then relapsed on alcohol causing consistent messing up until 8/3/24 where I almost completely lost my relationship with my father over my drinking. I started doing THC in smaller doses for a couple months after and realized it was holding my recovery back so on 10/19/24 was my last bit of THC. It has not been easy, but I’m surrounding myself with all the tools I can get. AA meetings, a sponsor, the steps, the big book, commitments, and never picking up that first drink. I hope to get to know more people on here because others in recovery have helped me so tremendously during these past 5 months. Thanks everyone.
Good job Mike. It’s a process that sounds like you get. The hard part is just keeping with it.
You’ve sound a great place of fantastic people. I have found that the more time a visit and read here the better I understand.
Hope to see you around more man.
Best of luck
Thank you. I honestly think what sometimes bothers me the most is admitting that my first total clean day was months after my last drink. Frustrates me sometimes, but I also try to look at it that I’m sober today and I realized my mindset was off so I could actually get busy with my recovery
Meh, it’s all good brother. You have a lifetime to stack up the days man. The fact that you have made these steps and progress is great just to have.
Yeah that’s true. I guess being early in recovery it gets to me sometimes. Just trying to take each day as a reset and another opportunity to get another day of recovering
Yer headed to three months soon. That’s an amazing testament to your focus and dedication to living a healthy life.
They will keep adding up and in no time you’ll be looking back at a successful year in your pocket.
Just keep the ODAAT focus and you’ll keep doing well.
Welcome aboard @mikedrums1205 
Yeah I’m really trying. It’s been so difficult. Just feels like no pink cloud like I felt for the dry months before. It’s felt like so much clawing and biting my way to another day. Even right now my family is over for dinner and I have urges and idk why. Drinking ruined everything for me. Why do I still have this tendency to wanna destroy myself? Sometimes it feels like I’m just trying to get to the next day
Yeah, it’s not always rainbows my friend. Sometimes it’s definitely a bear down and get er done.
Hopefully you’re in a position to go for a walk or some other activities to distract you.
Speaking as someone in the verge of my first year in a couple days it still has many up and downs. But the downs are much much less than the impact of imbibing again.
Stay here if needed, read, reach out. Just stay in the game my friend. Easier times will come. Just have to push through some tougher days sometimes…
You got this
Yeah I just called my sponsor and that helped. My dad is a heavy drinker though and I live with him so I honestly feel like I might need to be in a sober living house. The alcohol always around is awful and he’s drunk a lot. I just don’t like it. That’s on me but trying to figure this out in the midst of this is extremely painful honestly
Well good on you for making this far. That sounds tougher than it needs to be. Congratulations though on pulling through the holidays with the temptation right there.
I know when I get pulled a bit, I like to head to bed early. Read. Workout, something. Being around a person drinking or drunk though would definitely test things and I applaud your strength man.
Hoping you can put this day behind you sooner than later bud. Keep busy…
That’s been my learning too. I’m grateful to be learning how important that is.
Welcome to Talking Sober!
Great job. Welcome here 
Welcome @mikedrums1205
Glad you are here with us. I also live with someone who is a heavy drinker. My husband, fortunately he is not annoying or looking to pick fights when he has had a drink. It does make it hard but not impossible.
We can do this. Lets just not drink today!
Yeah it’s become very difficult for me so I decided to contact some AA friends I know about a sober living house. Gonna see if that’s a road I want to go down because I really just want to focus on my recovery without the obvious triggers until I can handle those situations better. Need to get my head on more straight. Been staying sober for a few months now and trying really hard, but I also know how it’s been made more difficult because of the alcohol in the house. I’m not giving up the fight though. My recovery is more important to me than anything.