one of the people who has been close to me since even before my addiction was shot tonight. right after i got off the phone with him. i was supposed to go to his house. i didn’t.
life is not fair.
i try to be better, and day 1 i get things stolen out of my house , and someone close to me shot.
it is so hard to fight this urge.
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Omg Madison… I’m so sorry. I don’t even have the words. That’s just awful.
I’m sure you’re doubting everything right now. And the urge to use is strong…
But don’t.
That won’t fix anything and it won’t make you feel better.
There are so many things in life that aren’t in our control. And it sucks. My wife might leave me… But that’s not in my control. You know what is??
My sobriety.
Your sobriety is the one thing in your life you have complete control of. Hold on to it Madison.
I’m praying hard for you right now.
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Really sorry for what happened Madison. Very hard stuff. Life is so bloody hard at times. Using seems like the way out I know. It’s not though. It’s what gets us in these situations in the first place. Wishing you all success. Hang in there. Hang with us. Thinking of you.
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Hey this is terrible. I’m so sorry your friend got shot, oh my god.
I don’t really want to say anything after that becusee it’s disrespectful to your loss but I feel I have to say this: that this terrible shit is happening in your life might be pure coincidence, it might be in some way related to the context of chaos and unmanageability that untreated addiction and mental health issues create. Bad stuff happens to sober poeple. But life does become more manageable. You become more reliable, better equipped. Don’t give up on your hopes for sobriety because of these things now, that would not be the right conclusion to draw.
Again, I’m really sorry this happened. May your friend be in peace. And you stay sober.
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Its so easy to get lost in the madness associated with addiction, trauma, loss and heart ache weighs heavy on our shoulders trying to change and deal with life and such unfortunate circumstances. Might consider grief counseling help get through these early days from suffering such a tragedy. Glad your here trying to improve your life with sobriety, its surreal dealing with losing people to such violence, just takes time to process everything. Reach out ask for help if you need.
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