It was all a damn lie

So porn addiction… Ever since my theralt session i have been answering alot of inner questions about my addiction an my mind. For awhile i heard porn sex was fake but never really believed it till i heard it from the stars theirselves. Now this revelation had me look back seeing my relationships were all very 1sided an selfish. Also my expectations based off fake acts got me thinkin damn all my expectations an possible everything i watched and fantasized was fake. An i feel real bad that i put these women up to over the top expectations that were just all fake cuz from young those dirty flicks is all i knew as a reference to women and sex. I feel ashamed, sad angry an all emotions that i let this shit control my life. So now the jpurney continues an i must find out what reals for relationships