I relapsed on july 4th after a year and a half of being sober , honestly ive been avoiding this app since then, nothing got out of hand but was going to . Anyways gonna try to start over. I’m not doing good though last year my cousin died a month into my sobriety and now his twin brother just passed away as well , both freak accidents only in there early 20s idk why its hurting so much more this time knowing that my family lost not one but two its killing me and the mother was asking for prayers online bc she thought maybe there was hope that the prayers would help, that God would help but it didn’t he didn’t bc prayers don’t work is all chance and it’s all bullshit i was raised in a god fearing home and it never did me any good i use to pray all the time and it never did anything and according to my dad im gonna burn in hell anyways … I’m just ranting i have no one i can talk to and I’m hurting
Welcome back Emily! My deepest condolences to you on the loss of ur family members. That is never ever easy 
Thank you …
Hey, I’m sorry for your loss 
My condolences to you and your family.
I have also been on and off with getting sober, I did not think It was going to be this hard for me but I’m slowly learning and getting through it.
You have Gone a year and a half and that’s a lot longer than I have. If you have done it once, you can do it again!
Just remember to keep your head up and take it day by day. You’re going to have the best days and the worst. just remember we are all here for you!
I’m trying, i let it come back bc of curiosity and i do regret that
Sorry for your loss. Such a young age and makes no sense. I think under the circumstances you can scratch out that slip up and say you are still sober. It was such a long sober time which is absolutely amazing. Don’t feel bad you are going through enough and seeked comfort. Say no the next time because alcohol makes grief so much worse. Even without grief alcohol makes me cry but thinking about people I have lost when drinking results in nights in bed crying and no sleep at all, burning red eyes the next day. Another day of crying and a hangover. I’m waking up this morning able to open my eyes, no aching limbs and no hangover. I still cry a little but it comes and goes a lot easier with a clear head. Best of luck and definitely start again.
Welcome back Emily! I am so very sorry for your losses. 
Sending you my condolences and sympathy. 
Glad to have you back with us.