I’ve been reading through old stuff on here I have saved and it’s all a good reminder of where I came from at my lowest and why I never wanna feel that bad again.
Wow thats AMAZING! This past year have been really challenging for alot of people. You’ve come such a long way though if you are still sober after 2020 you are doing amazing and can definitely keep going.
My depression and anxiety have big crazy this year too, sometimes it feels we will be stuck in this forever but I know that’s not true.
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Oh man I wish I could do nighttime walks, I watch too much true crime to ever feel safe doing that 
lol! Are they long walks?It’s probably so quiet and the sky at night is gorgeous.
I DO have a really nice view from my deck though it overlooks the mountains here in Nevada.
I took a nice walk to the park by my house today and it helped alot.
What music is your favorite right now?
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That last sentence… That’s how my irrational mind feels too. Even my rational thinking struggles to not latch onto it. All part of the rollercoaster, unfortunately. But none of it will make me drink. I know exactly where I came from and how far I’ve traveled, I can’t throw that away under any circumstances.
How have your first few days been?
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I actually lived in California growing up until 2014 I lived in West Virginia then came back in 2015 and stayed up until last year around June.
My husband started school over here in Nevada so that’s where I am now.
It’s actually beautiful over here lots of rivers and beautiful mountains. We get 4 seasons too.
I’ll have to share some pictures as it gets warmer.
Gotta keep up my walks to keep my mind off alcohol.
Oh cool I love rap, I’ll look them up do they have anything on Spotify or YouTube?
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Thats true life is always a rollercoaster sober or not and I know it’s much better sober for us without all the drama that comes with drinking.
You’re doing amazing, I admire it.
I wish I had that long.
I’m just going through the motions. I’ve always been a binge drinker. Around day 4- 6 is when the cravings start again and then my mind tries to trick me into thinking it’ll be different this time.
So hopefully I can get through these next few days okay.
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I do, but we don’t get out much I usually am super active and like event type things…basically everything that’s fun and canceled for now lol
So I hope I get a chance to really experience it soon when things come back.
It was in the 90s every day when we got here took forever to cool down. Living in a desert is really weird though.
I listened to one song gonna listen to more! I used to go to underground hip hop shows years back had friends who performed that and poetry.
Words are just so powerful I love listening.
I’ve heard good things about living in flordia I’m sure its beautiful over there and the perfect place for bike riding.
This is dumb but do you see alot of gators?lol
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I live south of Dan, there’s a lot of gators here.
This picture was taken last year here in Sanibel.
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Lol!!!omg this is so casual I love it.
Thank you for that
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Wow thats nice you have your family around too. We don’t mine drives either a 10 hr drive or and hour flight every few months to visit.
We drove to California for Christmas but the drive home was scary it started snowing and our chains didn’t fit.
I’ve been to Colorado once but just briefly, it was beautiful though. Oh nice okay I’ll listen to some more songs, I like everything but I do like alot of rap/hip hop to lift me up. I like older music too though like the eagles and their Era. It’s relaxing and I have a turntable which brings a good vibe to the music.
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Side note…I did go to Costco today and passed by all the alcohol I had to advert my eyes and went straight to the veggies instead. Not easy, I had to remind myself I have no business buying alcohol let alone in bulk unless I literally wanna die, I’m a binge drinker and I’ll just keep drinking.
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Today was terrible. My anxiety that always comes a few days after drinking was through the roof. Couldn’t control tears at all and I couldn’t even explain why exactly I was so upset.
My husband was good to me but I’m just angry at myself for being so emotional for absolutely no reason.
Today would have been the day I caved in. But I didnt…I bought donuts instead for all of us lol.
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I just picked a random donut shop because I haven’t tried any of them yet here and they were pretty good. I totally agree local is always better than the grocery store.
The one I went to was called Doughboys
I usually just get maple and glazed.
I think I had over a year back then. The only other spans I’ve gone are because I was pregnant so that never feels like it counts lol
I appreciate the support I need to hear these words and reminders especially because it’s been so long. That’s why I came back to here because I feel a little lost and need to be around people on the same path.
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Omg noooo that’s terrible they closed, yoy should definitely try some new places see if you can find a good shop you love.
Lol yeah it was alot feels like a different person, alot has happened since then. I’m trying to find ways to be peaceful and happy with myself again, been downloading different apps that help with finding peace in your life.
I’m 10 days sober today. Not bad.
I know what you mean I’ve never forgotten anyone who impacted me on here and pretty cool to see some people are still on here.
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I have reddit too but only to read random discussions lol !guess I’m just curious, turns out alot of us think about the same things.
And thank you!onto 13 days today feeling okay.
My weekend was good, I got my sister coming to visit and help with the kids in a few days. Hope you had a good weekend too! Don’t forget to find a good donut shop soon 
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Hey I’m doing okay, just a little over a month sober. Started a workout challenge to have something for myself. How are you
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I drank last night I don’t even know why, I had a month and 2 days and had to reset. & now I’m hungover. I’m mad at myself.
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I really appreciate that. I’ll go get a donut tomorrow lol
Well idk I guess the pandemic has been really messing with my head lately. The year mark. I’m tired of being at home, and I’ve been very very careful with some exceptions of family visiting and visa versa every few months. We test and are careful but I just miss people, and I’m an introvert so that’s saying alot lol
Stress definitely, lots of stress.